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2012 的农历新年

2012-01-29T04:59:00.000-08:00

今年的新年花了4天在外婆家~
简简单单的新年~
虽然没有去年来的大团圆，但还是像以往的热闹~
虽然还在守百天里，但大家都感觉到了‘她’始终在我们的身边~
虽然有些人禁忌，但大部分的家人都回家了~
一样的热闹~
初一，一家大小回了外婆家，带了bibu一起~
还好她乖乖的呆在车里直到外婆家，但一到外婆家有可能感到陌生和紧张，在地上洒满了‘黄金’
第一天，虽然只有我们一家，二姨一家，小姑一家和舅舅
但从第一天开始没停的在吃~
没能庆祝新年但还是吃不停~
初二，三，是最热闹的两天。
姑姑们都到齐了，怀念的是他们的声音与热情
总是把家里的气氛带到最高点，笑声连连~
初四，大家都回到各自的家，简简单单的大团圆，只能说没什么比亲情重要~
一到家，是姐妹的时间了~
马上驾车到老幺家拜年，老婆和姐妹到齐
玩疯一整天，隔天初五和老幺和老婆去了看戏，逆战不错看^^
初六与初七到了朋友家拜年与赌博~小输三令吉。
今天初七，拜了年到了观音厅拜拜，保平安~
就这样，新年过了一半，还有一个星期的新年~
新年过了就得回到了现实~唉~
但还是把新年过的开开心心和愉快的回忆~
新年过了就是情人节了
情人节过了就得回槟城了。
还真的是不舍的~
希望今年可以过得顺顺利利，平平安安，家人身体健康就足够了~不贪心~:)
to be continue。。。

回家的感觉真好~

2012-01-21T07:19:00.000-08:00

昨天下午3点出就到了setia alam 的巴士总站

可是咪的电话，家里的电话都没人接

有点慌张和担心

胡思乱想的

眼泪不受控制的流了

想太多~

打了电话给大哥，刚巧哥刚到巴生。

让他来接我回家。

最后打了电话给姐，还我白担心了一场。（只是家里没人，咪的电话有问题，还以为。。。）

但，哥到了巴士站，咪也刚到来接我，结果行李往哥的车放而我跟了咪的车平安回到家^^

车上，告诉了咪关于我梦见了外婆~

故事过程只发现我拼命的哏咽，发现咪掉眼泪，我也解放这三个礼拜的心情~

原来不止我一个梦见外婆，小姑也梦见了。。而且内容很接近~

我只想说，您永远都会活在我们的心中~

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农历新年只剩一天，很期待初一回外婆家的大团圆。

只是少了她~

今年新衣买的不多，没什么心情购物~

也刚刚发现到，今年我忘了买红色的衣或裙。

衣服的颜色都是暗色，但给自己染了红色指甲。。（一个新年的小小意头）

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发现回到家，很多事情都改变了。

尤其是朋友方面~

朋友不多，

一个月的放假，

有点难过~

我想新年后的我应该是大部分的时间都呆在家发呆上网吧~

但我都会把握一半的时间陪在咪的身边~

希望能陪她多一点在开学之前~

在结束今天的故事前，想分享一些关于我‘女儿’^^

她剪了短发，身体健康，还是一样的可爱。

但我发现到，她变得更加的爱粘我。

在我踏进家，她那兴奋+开心+欢迎的迎接我的归来^^

开心~

还发现到，她越变越懂得如何去享受！！

越来越铁齿。

尽然在我不注意的时候，跳上了沙发睡觉！！

如何叫她都叫不下沙发。

只能用硬的~装生气~

还有，咪说她跳上车当咪开车门时，

没发现她跳上车不小心车门夹到了她~

幸运的是没受伤^^

我想我的小小意见-带bibu回外婆家已经得到了咪的批准了。

希望带的成^^

封闭起来了

2012-01-05T08:55:00.000-08:00

今天的气氛是好的，是开心的，是热闹的
但还是假装着开心，
外表和心里虽是在同一个人身上却带着不一样的面具
假装成开心是多么的辛苦
说了一大堆不可能从我嘴巴说出的话
做了一些不是真正的我
但，不想破坏气氛
还是尽我所能的把事情搞好
虽然惊喜早就被揭穿
大家还是开开心心的为今天的寿星婆庆祝生日
把半间的pizzahut搞的脏兮兮的
总觉得，有art students 出现的地方一定会被搞得乱七八糟
但大家开心就好
hmm, 再给我几个星期的时间
我很快就会复原~
不再带着假装开心的面具~
现在的我需要的是时间与亲情~
被封闭了起来，
时间是最好的钥匙来打开封闭的门。

晚安了。

what your favourite colour says about you

2012-01-05T06:01:00.000-08:00

Your favourite colour can say a lot more about you than you might think. Different colours have different associations. Dr Max Luscher invented the Luscher colour test in 1947. It is now used by psychologists to reveal hidden moods and stresses. Advertisers and designers also use it.

my favourite colour is grey/gray.

grey indicates hiding something or not wanting to get involved (accurate!!!)

grey symbolized with brainy, class, efficiency, sophistication, confidence (brainy-sometimes. class- question mark. efficiency-depend on my mood. sophistication-always. confidence- on certain thing. So, the accuracy 60% :) )

for female who pick grey, they are comes across as cool and professional~

with grey as your favourite colour, you are middle of the road type. Cool, conserved, composed and reliable. You tend to conform just to keep the peace.

symbolized with boring, quiet or calm, neutral.

red.

associated with 'force of will' and indicates activeness, desire, power, and sexuality.

attention, determination, passion, strength, persistence, excitement

those who love red live life to the fullest and are tenacious and determined in their endeavors

one small breath can spark a flame that last forever. If red is your favourite colour, you are passionate in the extreme. You see no object in your path and will go aggressively stampede other out of the way until you reach your goal. If you meet another red lover, it's possible that the two of you may spontaneously combust! If you are not a red and find yourself pursued by one, embrace the passion or get yourself a restrainning order.

blue.

associated with 'depth of feeling' and indicates being passive, sensitive, perceptive, calm, tender, loving and affectionate.

loved, high regard, knowledge, authority, trust, serious, responsibility, peace, social status, caring, good health, honest, royalty, integrity, calm, happiness

if blue is your favourite colour you like harmony, reliable, sensitive and always make an effort to think of others. You keep like to think clean and tidy and feel that stability is the most important aspect in life.

Heaven and gentle waves are the hallmark of blue lovers. They love and can be gentle and passionate at the same time. Blue tease and tickle and then light candles and pull you down to serious business. A blue can be satisfied with one love so long as they are passionate and joyous. Blue stick with you during hard times and are there to dance when times are good.

green.

associated with 'Elasticity of will' and indicates defensiveness, prossessiveness, persistence, assertiveness and self-confidence.

relaxing, compassion, prosperity, growth, abundance, money, vitality, harmony and efficiency.

those who love the colour green are oftne affectionate, loyal and frank. Green lovers are also aware of what other thinks of them and what consider their reputation very important.

It's not a coincidence that green invoke visions of gently rolling field and fresh spring scents. The lovers of green make enduring and endearing partners who believe in love and romance. It's easy to drift into a relationship with one, you'll get everything they have to give.. just don't look at greener pastures while they are watching you.. that's one monster you never want to face.

yellow.

Associated with 'Spontaneity' and indicates aspiration, investigation, versativity, and originality.

"yellow is capable of charming God" --Vincent Van Gogh--

anxiety, alert, optimistic, confident, stimulating, intelligent

you enjoy learning and sharing your knowledge with others. Finding happiness come easy to you and others would compare you to sunshine.

orange.

happy, courageous, succssful, enthusiasm, bold, adventuresome, friendliness, warmth, informality, welcoming.

"orange is the happiest colour" --Frank Sinatra--

purple.

spiritual, passionate, visionary, regal, powerful, respected, dignited, luxurious

"i think it pisses God off of you walk by the colour purple in a field somewhere and dont notice it" --Alice Walker, The Colour Purple (Simon and Schuster 1982)

you are artistic and unique. You have great respect for people but at times can be arrogant.

black.

indicates rebellion and rejection.

elegance, authority, dignity, sophistication, seductive, mystery

"I have been 40 years discavering that the queen of all colours is Black" -- Pierre-Auguste Renoir--

people who choose black as their favourite colour are often artistic and sensitive. While these people aren't introverts, they are careful with the details or their lives and do not share easily with others.

white.

virtue, fertility, clean, status, prosperity, pure, innocent

people who like white are often organized and logical and dont have a great deal of cluter in their lives.

here is the website to test your personality through Luscher Colour Test.

http://www.axlife.com/luscher/

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2012-01-01T22:08:00.000-08:00

suddenly feel angry and disappointed

yea, maybe just a joke but you over the limit

yea, you are elder but what you mean of 不是很亲罢了？

although passed already but when i recall back

make me feel angry and disappointed

if i not close to 'her' why i will rush back just to attend the funeral?

if i not close to 'her' why i will cry for nothing?

if i not close to 'her' why i will call her grandma??

really sad and disappointed!!!!

how bout i say it to you:

you are not close to your daughter???

how you feel?

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只想发发牢骚

想找个人陪~

心情很低落~

2012-01-01T19:54:00.000-08:00

昨晚睡不好

不喜欢心情低落时一个人睡

满头脑重复了那几天的画面

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是幻觉？

看着您安详的躺在那

总觉得您还在呼吸着

总觉得您像似在睡觉

还是接受不到您的离开

每次和咪回家，您都回笑着迎接我们

熟悉的声音和问候

那画面离不开我的头脑

总觉得您还在我们的身边

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现在屋子空荡荡

只希望每年的农历新年能像以往一样的热闹

没人缺席

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每当想起

泪还是不听话的滑落

我的功课上总有您的回忆

双眼红肿，

但还是得继续的加油

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you leave us unexpectedly

but still can feel you still around us

you always live in our heart

miss you

grandma

rest in peace

结束了

2012-01-01T09:24:00.000-08:00

今年的新年是最难忘最心痛的一次

别人开心的倒数迎新年

而我却不舍的，不愿的倒数着送她走的那一刻

到家的那一刻，看到了一个笑容

是坚强，坚持的笑容

看了有点心痛

走进客厅

眼泪不停的掉落

不想接受的事实，但还是事实

3天里，体验了很多

体验了人生是多么的短暂-生老病死

但教了我

团圆

珍惜

爱

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1.1.12 早上，站在灵堂了许久

时间慢慢的流失

不舍的心情越来越重

眼泪不停的滑落

师父的一声命令

我只听见在灵堂里的人不舍的哭声

真正离别的时间到了

跟着灵车后，握着咪的手

痛哭流涕

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结束了，却看到不想看到的事

她的眼泪

让我更加心痛

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我相信我看到的蝴蝶与蚱蜢

是您们~

安心吧，一路好走

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希望每年农历新年的团圆还能继续着

这是新年的小小愿望~

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不舍的脚步，让我回到了现实

却看到朋友的安慰

真心的道谢~

没你们，对爱逃避现实的人是走不到今天的~

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加油吧，给‘她’的爱子爱女与外孙们=)

2011-12-28T07:29:00.000-08:00

难于解释的痛
最不想的，还是发生了
哭了又哭
最不想看到的还是妈妈伤心流泪

外婆，一路走好

shopping mood on!!

2011-12-21T06:52:00.000-08:00

today went to class at 9am end class 10am~
back to the hostel and did my 2D assignment finish it on 12pm++
received the call from ah boom and ask to go prangin mall shopping~
firstly i dont feel like want to go cause got tutorial class at 2pm..
luckily, the last tutorial class was in the last week but i skip the class because of high fever~
went to prangin mall with doodle gang and catherine..
i bought a lot of cny clothes
i bought a dress, 2 jeans, a pair of shoes and a shirt~
total spend me below than rm200 but plus eat and transport total rm220~
happy happy happy~
long time didnt shopping already~
back to klang i want to buy some singlet..my favourite :P
tmr got theatre quiz~
i didnt do revision~
haiz~hopefully can open book to do the quiz :P
feel tired after shopping~
but still have to think how to finish the product assignment and submit it on friday~
because i miss my family and bibu~
and i got another mission~
hehehehe~
i hope i can get it before i back to penang again~
i want to do something for him because he really help me alot~
i cant count and pay it back to him~
only can do some tiny surprise to him~
the surprise from doodle gang :)
hopefully he love it~

recently

2011-12-20T05:27:00.000-08:00

recently keep busy about final projects and assignments~

too busy~

as a designer, always have to sacrifice the time to sleep and the time to eat~

that's is why i fall to sick..

fever 39 celcius, sore throat, flu, bone pain, headache, cough~every virus come to visit me>.<

luckily, my lovely classmates do care about me..

so sweet~ :P

they take good care of me, bring me to clinic, fetch me go and back to school and bring food to me~love you guys very much~

i very proud of myself..

even though sick seriously but i still can finished the assignments in a day.

mommy give me back the motivation after had a talk with her when sick~

i will fight until the end..

today visual communication have to presentation the final assignment about green coke~

i used 3 days to finished 6 designs..

1 new can for coke, t-shirt, gift away shopping and 3 posters~

i always the last one to present since primary school>.<

wait from 2pm until 6pm something~

the result of the presentation, for me is quite okay already..

although the design not perfect~

but i speak different and try to defense my design..

i never speak for myself~

today i did it~

and one of my design get praise from the lecturer~

happy~

i like to design~i like to use the software i learned this semester~

learn alot~^^

enjoy the process of design~i love design^^

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one thing is very hard for me to change is my weird personality~

i like to change~unstable emotion~

sorry to make you angry again :P

just because of a small action but very mean it :P

i will try to stand at yours side to see how you think~

learn it from philip~

i will stop to make people suffer because of me :P

wahahaha XD

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getting fat after sick~

damn, i ate alot >.<

but keep gastric

this few weeks keep suffer from gastric and cramp!!!!

walaowei!!

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lastly, im happy.

give myself a big applause :)

fighting!!!!

fight for final exam!!!

just want to pass the exam..

no demand to get a good result :P

2011-12-06T19:19:00.000-08:00

hmm~今天又点不顺~

想洗衣但不够散钱~

买了点吃的想能找回散钱~

结果店员说下次再来时再给回你~

被弹打伤了==

再来，在食堂到处去问那些小贩换散钱~

没有一个要换给我~

生气！！！！

只好等roomate回来借点散钱来洗衣~

不想用手洗，有点累~（其实是懒惰:P）

心情不错~

借助甜食，朋友和他的关心~

我爱上macaron~希望还有机会吃到:)

我爱上doodle~谢谢你们的体谅和陪伴:)

终于感觉到之前你没有的举动~

我希望能打动到我，因为我不想要有反效果~

因为我知道那反效果的威力~

不敢想象我会做出什么事来~

我只能尽量:)

我爱上vanilla twilight~

我爱上它的词~

我爱上篮球~

前天和philip 和另一个他到了蓝球场打球~

玩得很开心~

太用力笑到肚子很不舒服~

没想到本小姐的球技还不错:P

最高纪录，10发进6:)

最低纪录，10发进0!!!! XD

还有，想拦我的球，只好把球从他胯下传了出去~

因为真正的篮球员都有这个问题~

脚都会张的大大的，

我没好球技，不会打，只会投篮~

只好玩点犯规的:P

谁叫只有我一个女生:P

你们得让让我啦XD

想小睡一会儿，等下还有一小时的课还得做assignment...

加油吧~有回了动力~:)

2011-12-05T10:10:00.000-08:00

被爱是幸福的~
但不能在一起才是最痛的~
我相信你能做到~
因为我是心软的~
因为我的心不在这，
还在同个地方。。
但是被自己封密着
就当作是给彼此的考验吧~
我不能保证我的心会给回你~
但我对你有信心~
因为我的眼泪不会随便为人而流 :)
你送我的歌，我收到你要传达的信息~
我很感动~加分啦~
今天你说的话
让我的心有点动摇了~
但我还是坚持~
我想再看清楚点，
因为我学会自私~
只能选择不必要的伤害~
因为我为你付出了太多，
我不想再发生同样的事~
加上最近功课上的压力，
哭出来，舒服多了^^

重新开始

2011-12-02T09:01:00.000-08:00

hmm~ 最近虽然发生了很多开心与不开心的事~
先苦后甜嘛~
就从苦事说起吧~
又想家了>.<
这次是想pappy了~
从懂事到现在，很少和他有互动
可以说有事请才会开口说话
不然可以说是没沟通到~
不然一开口就是不好的语气~
但我想我长大了 :P
我不会再有那些幼稚的思想，
我感觉到他的关心和爱护
虽然有时是紧张过度了一点，
我还是能感受到您是用行动多过于语言来爱我~
接下来就是功课上遇到麻烦啦~
但没关系
我相信先苦后甜~
再来，dont simply judge me if you dont know me well~
给A小姐^^
我需要时间变回，我也很想念我们时常打打闹闹的日子~
虽然因为A小姐的一句话让我们变了生疏~
是吃醋吗？>.<
从不把这些小事放心上的竟然会发生在大学里。。
真是伤脑筋哟~
接下来是甜啦~
和coursemates的关系越来越好。。
虽然知道自己的脾气不好
但他们都能接受^^
很开心~
再来时我的生日~
虽然发生了小小不愉快的事情
但我想是我多想了~
很感谢老友和新友为我庆祝生日。。
还有最重要的事我得家人。。
今年的生日得到了不少~
一架电话，一堆包包，一个项链，两粒蛋糕，两杯酒，一场电影，pizza一餐，和一些祝福。。
开心的^^
我希望我的愿望都能成真。。
很夜了，想睡了，很多心里话想打出来发泄发泄。。
但眼睡了。。to be continue~
结尾有点草率了一点:P

晚安~

divertido~

2011-10-22T19:29:00.000-07:00

long time didnt update my blog already..

because my life now full of assignments!!

but still enjoy the process to gain more knowledge and drawing skill..

i dont like stippling because make my hand keep shaking>.<

but i like still like it:P

so contradiction~

never stippling before, last week done 2 stippling art work..

1 is fruits and another 1 is self portrait~

in the same week, redo my photoshop self portrait project~

holiday is coming soon and many assignments have to done it in holiday and submit after holiday..

although got holiday still like no holiday..

assignment!!

having fun last two days ago..

practicing the performance with graphic sosial group..

keep playing around and dance around~

enjoy it with them~

yesterday, is the interaction day with senior in art of school..

and we have to perform to them and lecturer..

our group is the first group to perform..

i love sexy danceXD

after the performance and is time to take photo with seniors..

playing around and dancing around on the stage..

never do such thing before:P

but it is divertido~

enjoyable~

i love my graphic sosial group a lot~^^

after that, went to mamak to celebrate nizam birthday until 12.30am..

what a tiring weekXD

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knew some good friends and truth friends..

i very glad to knew you all..

thx for the caring~

will appreciate it^^

love you guys :D

life~

2011-10-13T04:33:00.000-07:00

the relationship between the new friends become more and more better..
i admit sometimes i look like withdrawn with the big emotion like dont want to talk to friends in the morning class..
but i felt that i become better and try to not so 'emotion' in the morning..
and many of my friends here can accept my weird personalities^^
happy to knew them..
life in uni is getting busy and busy..
tmr will going camp at sungai siput perak>.<
luckily, got coursemate same camp with me^^
plus, today have a good mood because after i came to uni i realize that daddy will call me to ask me bout something in uni..
this made me feel warm~
even though in house we less interaction with each other..
but i know he very love me~
he is the one who more nervous than me while registration day^^
yea, assignment getting more and more~
can say that before uni i very less practice drawing..
but now, i draw everyday for the assignments..
and i must advance my drawing technique because usm really like 'wo hu chang long'
kai kian also agree with me~
i mush chase after them..
because i believe in myself that i can do it~
miss family~miss bibu~
put my missing and emotions into my drawing..
be the special~^^

untitle~

2011-10-09T05:45:00.000-07:00

one week didnt update my blog already..

a lot of things happened around me..

but still have to be strong enough to cover it and make my uni life better and better..

i dont want waste my 3 years time in uni..

appreciate the time with friends and all the matter in penang..

learn how to appreciate even though they are no relationship with me..

even though they are stranger..

i believe karma^^

recently keep doing assignments..

can say every day got assignment from different lecturer>.<

but having fun in the process of doing assignment..

because heard kai kian said i got advance even though i dont think so~

i just know how much effort you put you will get back how much of the good result although make some mistakes..

but still learn something from the mistakes..

and this weekends..i wasted rm 20..

even though rm 20 is not a big amount but in uni life there is a big amount for a student..

but no idea, i must waste the rm 20 for my assignments..

feel bad cant go to the camp with friends..

last thursday, didnt sleep for whole day..

because i have to wake up early moring 4am to prepare to upsi..

because it is too far from penang to tanjung malim perak~

so i decided not to sleep and doing my assignment and prepared to upsi..

before doing assignment was gathered and restu mamak with kai kian, yeow, guo qiang, and mervyn..

happy to know mervyn well..

yamcha until 1am++ and back to the hostel..

after reached hostel get a call from kai kian and get a bad news..

damn sad and angry..

after i know the bad news, only one thinking in my mind

that is dont simply judge a person that you just know him or her~

took a nap around 3.30am and woke up 4am and prepared to upsi with course mate..

having a lot of fun with them^^

took a lot of pictures in upsi~

get to know some new friends~

get to know course mate deeper~

gain knowledge and enrichment~

saturday, skip the camp with waste my rm 20:P

but woke up around 11am and get ready to shoppingXD

went to queensbay with kai kian and mervyn..

having MCD and secret recipe with took a lot of pictures

after that went to pasar malam bought rubber shoes for pimpin siswa

that go back to hostel and continue doing my assignment until mid night 3 something..

today woke up 10am++ and went to katasila meeting with group member and pratice for tomorrow presentation..

a lot of problems~

after meeting, back to hostel and washed my clothes..

too many clothes didnt wash..

no more clothes to wear if didnt wash..

but i still very lazy, cause i just washed half of the clothes..

seperate into two days to wash the clothesXD

reason of being lazy because of assigments..

use two days for perspective and half day for photoshop..

felt happy because i done my photoshop(self portrait) just with a half day..

and i like it very much..

now just wait the result from lecturer^^

hope can get ace~:D

after done my photoshop, having dinner with kai kian at his hostel cafe and get a bad bad bad news again..

feel pity to her..

i believe in karma..

they will get back what they do to you~

god bless you~

and dont be too arrogant..

because that will limit you to gain knowledge..

be humble always~^^

ps:i miss my family very much, miss bibu very much~

nathan will book the train ticket and will going back soon~

bibu wait mommy back yea^^

pimpin siswa, i hate you!!!!i will try to enjoy in the camp this weekends>.<

miss bibu very muchT.T

2011-09-30T05:23:00.001-07:00

really miss BIBU very muchT.T

look at it's face and body shape..

sure eat nice sleep nice...

wondering BIBU still remember my smell or not..

if can i sure bring it together with me to penang..

hair and nails getting long and long already..

wait another 2 months have to cut already..

love it's eyes, love to pet it's head and love it stay and sleep beside meT.T

miss BIBU sooooo much......

queensbay to batu ferringhi

2011-09-26T07:50:00.000-07:00

25 of september
woke up around 9am something and met up emmy sharp on 12pm..
after that we walk together to restu cafe and met with her friends..
all her friends from selangor but with a different course..
really glad to know them..
firstly we took our lunch at mamak near our hostel and wait for the bus to queensbay..
our first plan was watch movie in queensbay but the cinema fulled..
so we change our plan to batu ferringhi..
me and emmy bought a short pant in queensbay cause we didnt bring clothes to change after play the water..
around 5pm something we reached batu ferringhi and wait for the others to bought their nice dress..
around 6pm we arrived the beach and start playing around..
it is fun to watch them playing around, took some nice pictures and chit chat..
but fortunately, the rain stop when we arrived batu ferringhi..
stayed in the beach around 1 hour plus and we walked to enca cafe to took our dinner..
i love the spagetti..
it is delicious and big..
after finished the spagetti we all suffer from the fullness:P
after that we took bus back to the uni and walked around the tapak convo and back to the hostel around 12am..
feel happy and enjoy the day with a group of friends~
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------
on the way to batu ferringhi i met a weird foreign labor in the bus..
the bus was pack alot of peoples and there are some peoples walk in and out the bus..
the weird foreign labor was just sit beside me..
suddenly i saw he took out his handphone and i saw my face inside his hp's screen..
i was just turn my face away and i heard the snapping picture's sound and i saw it agian to the screen i saw my legs..
what the hell!!!!
i faster close my legs with my big bag..
really hate those foreign labors..
full of dangerous for ladies~
damn scary~
haiz~
sad storyT.T
but i still enjoy the day with my friends..
will have a trip again to batu ferringhi with full of preparation^^
hopefully can go to batu ferringhi again as soon as possible^^

2011-09-24T05:31:00.000-07:00

有不好的心情~
酸酸的~
可能又想家了~
想念妈咪煮的炒饭和粥~
想念他们的脸~
想念他们的声音~
想念bibu的依赖性~
我想它的毛发应该是长了吧~
应该又是时间被妈咪绑在外面不准它进家门了吧~
毛发应该是开始脱了吧~
等等你的妈咪回家带你剪发去~
不懂还记得我的味道吗？
想和妈咪聊天但不懂说什么好~
只能想念~
我会加油的。。
等我回家~^^

it is hard to be a leader

2011-09-24T02:23:00.000-07:00

am i try my best to do every group assignment?

yea, i trying my best to do every assignment no matter in group or individual.

today, 24th of september..

woke up early in the morning at 9am something.

it is maybe i use to wake up early in the morning in penang.

this will never happen when in klang>.<

but is a good start to wake up early and sleep early

i wish i can sleep early for the day coming soon>.<

yea, started from last week get some project and assignment from lecturer.

in class of visual communication got 2 assignments and have to present it next tuesday

in the group i am a leader..

but i realize it is not easy to be a leader..

because im weak

some group members are not follow my order..

but it is fortunately i get some help from the others members..

and it is a good time for me to train myself to be a leader in the whole semester

but i really weak in this field>.<

from morning 10am something

open my lappy and start doing the assignment until now 5.30pm only finish it..

no one beside me to help me today..

all by myself..

but still have to thanks yeow help me to do slide show, farah help me to edit some photos by using photoshop and good ideas from malek..

im still trying my best hard to use photoshop..

and still got alot i have to learn..

it is fun to learn photoshop..

and got a assignment in class of foundation of computer graphics

have to use photoshop to edit self portrait..

another assignment is coming on next week..

feel exciting because i can get my materials on next monday

and feel sad because my wallet is bleeding now>.<

waiting for the scholarship..

i will treat myself a good meal when i got the scholarship^^

lastly, i hope "I" can have a good job in next tuesday presentation..

im count on you and that is your job from leader..

because you are doing nothing when discussion!!!

god bless me~

it is time to stand up and show it

2011-09-20T04:12:00.000-07:00

no one is perfect in this world..

so am i...

im not perfect in this course but i will take it as a challenge to success..

no one success without effort and train themselve to achieve the target...

im not perfect and im not good enough as other peoples..

but i think and i believe if i put more effort than others i will seccess..

today, maybe i got the luck..

no class in this morning but i still woke up early in the morning..

take my breakfast and shower then took the bus to library alone..

i am a forgetful person..

im totally forget about the lecturer what us to find the book to analysis the content of the book..

so i went to library alone and start asking people how to use the pc inside the library to find the book..

firstly, i cant found the book cause got a senior told me the book maybe can be find at second floor..

i used 20 minutes to find the book at second floor but i cant found it..

i totally have no mood to continue find the book..

think to go out to the library and find something delicious food as my lunch..

after that i try to find it at the first floor..

fortunately, i found it with a help from a staff in library^^

happy..

after that walked to the cafe beside my school and took a roti telur as my lunch^^

beside that, i was so lucky to get 5 free marks from Dr.Sam..very happy..

many peoples said that i have no the sense of direction and i admited it..

even though inside the campus around 2 weeks already i still have to use map when walk inside the campus..and lost inside the campus for few times..

but miracle comes to me..hahahaha

Dr.Sam by speak to give direction without show and draw the direction..

he want us to imagine that our mind is map..

after he give the direction and said the student who give the wrong answer will loss 5 marks automatically and right answer will add 5 marks..

only 5 students answer correct the question...

im very lucky to get the 5 marks...

wohoo~happy~

after that Dr.Sam start to give us assignment and project to do..

we seperated to 7 groups and in my group i became the leader..

because i think i have to stand up and it is time to show others that i can do it even though im not perfect and good enough in this course..

i suggest myself to become a leader of the group..

although in my group got one 'I' that i dont like because she always give the suggestion that everyone have to accept the suggestion..

and now im the leader of the group..

i will fight for it for everyone to listen to me espeacially you and i will accept others idea and suggestion..

because im not perfect...

and i will try my best to lead and present a good project next week..

i know i can do it!!!!

it is time for me not to hide inside my world and is time to stand up and fight for it!!!

jia you!!!^.^

holidays

2011-09-18T02:01:00.000-07:00

15th of september, thursday

after the class of PENGHANTARAN SENI TEATER,

received my roomate message with the content:

im going back home now and will coming back on sunday, take good care of yourself yea~

haiz..i get a very serious home sick when i read the message..

suddenly smell the porridge with jagung that cook by mommy(illusion)

so miss it...

everyday think of what to eat..

canteen's food is >.<

i prefer take bread all the day in university..

yea, im eating bread now...

this 3 days of holiday every meal i take bread..

feel lazy to walk to the canteen and think what should i eat today..

in home, no need to think about it..

arh~whatever~.~

after class went to tesco extra with kai kian bought some foods and a cup

took dinner at tesco's food court and met emmy with her friends

so ngam~^^

talk alot with her and after dinner walk back to hostel together..

the sad things is public holiday no bas inside the campusT.T

too far from the gate to my hostel.>.<

after that stay in the hostel online and sleep alone in room..

16th of september

woke up around 8 something and prepared to meet with kai kian at his hostel's canteen

unlucky, rainning day...

took breakfast in his hostel's canteen and wait the rain stop..

after that we took bas to gurney plaza shopping..

gurney plaza near the sea

can see the sea view there..

around 12pm we went to clinic cafe..

was feel disappointed to the waitress..

damn bad service with no integrity..

with a good mood to the cafe take lunch but met a bad service waitress..

so i decide not to eat in the cafe..

so we went to A&W take our lunch..

after that walk around the shopping mall..

the clothes inside the mall very cheap and nice..

i think i cant get the price in klang or even kl..

around 5pm we went back to the hostel..

17th of september

woke up around 10 something

washed my clothes, online and sleep..

nothing can do inside the hostel..

feel lazy to go out..

and just took some bread for my in the day

no mood to eat..

flu, sore throat, cough

i hope i wont get sick..

maybe still cant adapt the environment in penang..

everyday shower with cold water that's why get flu

everyday take outside food with alot of MSG that's why sore throat..

cough because of sore throat..

18th of september

woke up 8am and preparing for class in muzium outside the campus..

having fun in the muzium with alot of activities..

lunch time took a plate of chicken rice near the muzium with danny and philip..

the chicken rice just like klang..but klang's chicken rice more nicerXD

get to know an artist who painting inside the muzium..

his name is patrick lasak..

in this field around 30++ years

feel happy to get to know him^^

now, 5.30pm, inside the room and it's rain again in penang..

the weather is quite cold cause my hostel very near with the mountains even though the fan speed is low..

i still can feel the cold wind blow through my window..

yea, i miss home now..

and there was an activity named 'feel the force'

when lecturer asked us to think some one of your love and keep it in the mind

just for the few seconds i feel like i want to cry..

very enjoyable in the activities..

im thinking now what should i eat in my dinner>.<

homesick homesick homesick

学坚强

2011-09-12T06:32:00.000-07:00

在大学的一个星期里学了很多东西
学了强忍眼泪
我做到了
上大学的第一天，当要跟家人道别时强忍眼泪不哭
但还是做不到还是偷偷哭了
但很快的恢复心情
因为我不能再哭
哭只会让我更软弱
所以现在我学到如何强忍眼泪
每当接到妈咪的电话听到声音，安慰和问候都会让我认不住想哭
但我没哭，就算几辛苦我都会熬下去
不想辜负他们，不想让他们失望
妈咪知道我的脚都肿了
马上一个电话来问
温馨~
就算遇到不顺心的事
想到家人我还是会强忍眼泪熬过去
因为我知道我能，我要，我必须！！！
很严重的homesick~
室友星期四要回家
一个人在房里会显得有点寂寞~
想去nina家拜访~
因为会让我有家的感觉
别想了，加油吧！
给自己一个大大的微笑
心情好多了~

first day in penang

2011-09-04T08:17:00.000-07:00

今天很早就起身

为了准备所有的行李和文件以防忘了带

当所有的东西都放进车时

突然觉得鼻子酸酸的

原因是因为舍不得超级粘我, 贪吃, 爱睡, 懒惰和一点lan c的bibu

都是因为它的一举一动让我鼻子酸酸的

一直对着我蹦跳加上它的绳子不够长还拼命的向外跳

从车里看着它鼻子就觉得酸酸的

希望我回来时它还是健健康康的

出发了，

和家人吃了早餐就直奔槟城

之间到了怡保吃了午餐才继续往槟城

大概4点下午到达了酒店

休息了2个小时就和Nina一家人吃晚餐

很庆幸大学靠近她的家

她也答应了有时间可以到她家打发时间或陪我逛街

晚餐后，去了gurney plaza小逛了一下下

真希望明天可以去海边

但我知道是不可能的~

我想今天是9个月以来最早睡的一天吧

因为我不想我的熊猫眼越来越严重

真的难看死了！！

期待明天丰富的行程表

我会大玩一通

以免鼻子突然一酸

ps: 昨天很开心和老婆们的小聚会，难得认识了好几年我们的话题还是一样多。。老婆们，等我回家继续我们的话题~

有些幸福不容易遗忘，有些幸福是不是也正要开始？？和他小聊了2个小时多。。说实话，第一次告诉他自己的想法。。没任何的隐瞒。。我知道是不能勉强的，就只希望时间能证明一切，时间能带我到我想的未来与幸福。。只能再次的说对不起，因为我也相信所谓的karma...

anyway, good luck to all of my friends for going uni soon...all the best..fighting..^^

给你的信

2011-08-31T12:10:00.000-07:00

在电视听过那首歌,没什么感觉,就单纯的好听

但是你介绍我听的也等于是你想对我说的

我希望我这想法不是一厢情愿

很感动

MV里的画面让我想起很多关于我们的回忆

很难用言语去表达我们之间的感情

只想对你说，谢了！！

谢谢你的陪伴

谢谢你愿意听我说

谢谢你让我发脾气

谢谢你和我大吵大闹的

谢谢你忍受我的脾气

不管怎样对你发脾气你也不会有反抗

就只有你

虽然有时真的太爱面子了

突然觉得很多的委屈和心事都说不出口了

因为习惯让你看到坚强和勇敢一面

所以最近不能像以前一样什么话都对你说

只能一直逃避你问的问题

只能呆在家，呆在房间，呆在自己的世界

不懂为什么一直想起当兵的事

最让我印象深刻的晚上

我只能说我为我感到骄傲

因为把你给拉回来了

才有现在的你

虽然有点厚脸皮的说~

但我还是很开心有你这位老婆

我会去学坚强

不再随便掉眼泪

你也是哦。。

不要太想我

虽然我知道你会的^^

给老婆的信

准备好了

2011-08-28T23:35:00.000-07:00

我已经准备好了

准备好心情去开始新的生活

准备好离开这里

我会很潇洒的离开

不会留下任何的杂念

我只需要家人和姐妹的支持

其他的我一律都不会去想

现在也许会感到心痛

心痛友谊的脆弱

心痛他不再理会

也许想通了

对我对大家都好

我不会再折磨自己

只想如何让自己活得再精彩

不想荒废学业和自己的未来

也许失望与心痛会让我更加坚强

看清了这一切

我真的看清了

不会再去想

努力的想前冲

我准备好了

理大，我来了！！！^^

犯贱

2011-08-27T23:08:00.000-07:00

刚吃完午餐和妈咪小聊了一下

告诉她关于昨天晚上他和我的对话

说真的，昨天他是对我说了一写不经大脑的话

因为那些话我对他说了谎话

是为了自保

本来我可以当那些只是你对我开的玩笑

但当妈咪告诉我前天他问姐同样的问题

我的第一个反应是生气

我想了又想，为什么他可以变到如此犯贱

我想我知道为什么你会得到现在如此的下场

还怪我好心去年的事还帮你说好话因为不能接受另一个他

但现在我觉得另一个他好过你

也替姐感到高兴

我希望你可以远离我家人

不要在说出没经过大脑的话

去年因为你，我哭了一整天

因为你，怕姐误会了我

就是那几句不经大脑的话

现在又重复了同样问题

幸运的是，开心的事是姐不客气地拒绝他

不让他靠近

妈咪也真的生气了

有她们我不怕了

因为我相信亲情

但也请你不要再来骚扰我们

不然妈咪生气了你不会有好下场

另一件事，妈咪给了我劝告

我会听进去的

因为失望

因为不信任

我会放弃这友谊

因为毕竟你也只是其中一个过客

请原谅我用过客形容你

因为是你自己造成我们的友谊如此的不坚固

如你所形容的我们只是熟悉的陌生人

最后也自能怪自己的人缘不好

但不气馁

知道了自己的缺点

我会改善的

在大学我不会再犯同样的错误

정용화 그리워서

2011-08-25T01:29:00.001-07:00

늘 똑같은 하늘에
늘 같은 하루
그대가 없는 것 말고는
달라진게 없는데
난 웃고만 싶은데
다 잊은 듯이
아무일 아는 듯 그렇게
웃으면 살고픈데

그리워 그리워서
그대가 그리워서
매일 난 혼자서만
그대를 부르고 불러봐요

보고파 보고파서
그대가 보고파서
이제 난 습관처럼
그대 이름만 부르네요
오늘도

난 보낸줄 알았죠
다 남김없이
아니죠 아니죠 난 아직
그대를 못 보냈죠

그리워 그리워서
그대가 그리워서
매일 난 혼자서만
그대를 부르고 불러봐요

보고파 보고파서
그대가 보고파서
이제 난 습관처럼
그대 이름만 부르네요
오늘도

하루하루가 죽을 것만 같은대
어떻게 해야 해요

사랑해 사랑해요
그대를 사랑해요
말조차 못하고서
그대를 그렇게 보냈네요

미안해 미안해요
내말이 들리나요
뒤늣은 내 고백을
그댄 들을 수 있을까요
사랑해요

nice song, even though i cant read..
but i understand what it mean..
i love this song, very meaningful~

redo, redo, redo!!!!!!!

2011-08-23T05:14:00.000-07:00

please dont let me receive any call for redo again

waste my money, waste my time, waste peoples time

i hope no more mistake

i'll already take the action as per requested

please no more redo

今天打算跟自己的肚子过不去

早上起来就被一封信给难道了

没人帮，

只好硬着头皮打电话

还发了很大的脾气

爸爸对妈妈发脾气

我对爸爸用像他的语气和他说话

说完跟电话过不去

大力的把电话盖下去

呆在房间一直对着信发呆

想着到底哪里出错了

我承认不喜欢接到电话说我做错

但左看右看找不到到底错在哪里

对自己发脾气

跟自己的肚子过不去

到现在只吃了两个面包

再饿我也不会吃

不是我要发脾气

因为真的是浪费别人太多的时间和金钱

得不到帮忙

只好靠自己

不用多说

跟着自己的步骤走就行了

最后还是脱离不了自己的世界

选择从新呆在自己的世界才显得比较好过

好心情

2011-08-21T06:06:00.000-07:00

星期五，晚上和哥去了佛堂
当晚的佛堂讲师说了一些关于“充实人生”的道理
有一段很有道理很令我有印象
三不朽--立德，立功，立言
做人得三不朽
立德（做人），我想就是有比较高的道德修养，比较强的人格意识。这是人生立命的最基本的东西。如果把人生比喻成一棵树，那么“立德”，就好像是一棵树的主干。
立功（做事），我想就是要用一件一件的具体事情，来丰富、充实我们的人生。如果人生是一棵树，那么“立功”，就好比是一棵树的花与果。刚才我讲立德是主干嘛，立功就是这棵树的花和果。
立言，我想就是要用我们自己的思想成果来与这个世界进行交流，丰富我们人类的文明宝库。“文章千古事”，思想的传递要靠文章。如果人生是一棵树，那么“立言”，就好比是一棵树的种子。
缩短来说立德是做个有道德的人，立功是立德后的成果与后果，立言是立德，立功的开端，集口德，传言下去。。
很有意思^^
过后就和哥到家附近找沙爹
路途中遇到一个马来人，说是我们的不对车隔了出去，但和他是还有距离的
竟然horn了我们还隔车比中指！！
感觉很生气，但刚上完课是不容易发脾气的，因为集口德~~
过后还是没找到沙爹就回家去了
但心情还不错

星期六，下午自己一个人驾车去了bayu买了两包cream whipping
短短的路程我竟然花了一个小时。。super duper jam jam jam~
回到家，马上把妈咪做蛋糕的道具都搬出来
做起panna cotta
是第二次自己‘下厨’
因为第一次做panna cotta 不成功，水水的，但味道不错^^
第二次成功了！！！
还以为不能成功，因为还没有set就从冰箱拿出来吃。
晚上吃的则是set的。。开心
蛮有天分的嘛~只是懒惰罢了。。哈哈
好吃好吃^^

看起来不美，但很好吃^^
今天，星期日，和姐去了jusco买些化妆品
买了双眼皮膏和眼线
之间还去了看运动鞋
姐要买的鞋好好穿
bouncing~bouncing~
有钱也想买
也看上了一双荧光粉的运动鞋
好想要>.< 大概5点多就回家去了回到家就和姐化起妆来了我们只化了一只眼睛

题目取名为--钻石夜总会之变脸篇~哈哈
很搞笑，过后妈咪也加入我们
化好了，和妈咪到aunty家去
虽然只是几步，但不敢走出门
过后用手遮着眼睛到了aunty家去
刚巧，aunty在冲凉
冲凉出来却被我吓倒了，哈哈哈（场面很搞笑）
过后就等着大哥回来show给他看
果然，每个人的反应都是不一样的
他看到了，瞪了我一眼（意思是xiaozhabo）
哈哈哈
很好玩~

很想吃sushi..肚子饿了>.<
Hmm~下一个目标学做炒饭，想念妈咪的炒饭

BIBU sick again~heartacheT.T

2011-08-15T23:37:00.000-07:00

yesterday after lunch went to pet's clinic bought BIBU's food and body shampoo..

i get a free bowl for BIBU^^

i love purple

Trusted by vet, Loved by Bibu

today mummy woke me up around 8.50am

but i sleep until 9.30am but 10am i have to bring BIBU to see vet..

arrived pet's clinic around 10.10am..

saw few dogs at the clinic..

they are so prettty^^

i love white dog♥

before see the vet have to measure BIBU's weight..

the nurse said BIBU getting fatter
if not mistaken first time bring BIBU to clinic it's weight around 5~6kg

now around 8~9kg♥

it is a good news^^
after measured it's weight maybe BIBU too nervous and shit at there~.~
and i have to clean it's shit..
everytime go to see vet must pee and shit there=.=
luckily the nurses and vets there are kind^^

after see the vet then leave BIBU at clinic for hair cutting

around 2pm went to clinic again to bring back BIBU

nurse gave me 5 bottles of medicines for BIBU O.O

after that waiting BIBU..

around 5mins

the door open and BIBU ran as fast as it can to my side...

so touch~♥

like we are separate for few years~lol~

inside the car BIBU feel sleepy maybe because of the injection..

it never sleep inside the car..

it always hyper active while inside the car..

but today is different..

it sick already..

just like the photo

1. lay in the car but it's eyes cant open and feel sleepy

2. stand up and look here and there outside the window but it's eyes like baby want to sleep but curious about the things outside the window

3. tak boleh tahan already

4. after few minutes wake up again look here look there

5. sleep again~lol♥

so, hair cutting + see vet + medicines=rm200

i hope BIBU can recover as soon as possible

start thinking the day without BIBU T.T

suffer~

rainbow bridge

2011-08-15T08:54:00.000-07:00

time passing really fast...

left 19 days to leave klang...

2 more weeks..

and im ready for uni life..

no matter how, i will try my best..

will have a family trip before i stay in penang...

i will appreaciate the trip 3 days 2 night..

now i only got one more thing i havent do..

i hope will going smoothly as i thought..

i should be brave, be initiative...

if not success i will regret..

i finished 13 episodes in 2 and a half days..

this is a not bad korean drama..

i love CN BLUE's song..

hmm, BIBU sick again...

i have to spend alot of money for it treatment..

it is worth for me to spend money^^

i hope BIBU can get cure while im not in klang to take care of it...
BIBU fighting!!!!

变身成白纸

2011-08-12T01:44:00.001-07:00

虽然说我为自己踏出了一步

也改变了算命师的说法

所以说，命运是掌握在自己的手里，而不是别人的三言两语能改变的。。而是靠自己去争取自己的幸福和未来。。

从一张原本染上很多彩色的纸慢慢演变成黑灰色。。

再从黑灰色退到白色。。

白色不是代表孤独，渺茫，失望或是种种的负面形象。。

而是从新开始。。

从新开始染上色彩。。

为自己的人生从新打算。。

我想我认识多一位好朋友。。

谢谢他的尊重和体谅。。

我承认这一步踏出后我没掉过一滴眼泪。。

我想他会不好受。。

我也只能说对不起。。

我想也是时候为大学的是从新振作。。

虽然昨晚像个小孩和爱人诉苦了。。

把毒素从眼睛排出来后整个人轻松了许多。。

虽然失眠，但我不后悔。。

我应该振作起来。。

为自己庆祝一下。。

这也要谢谢另一个人。。

是他的一句话另我有勇气不再拖拖拉拉的。。

现在身为白纸的我。。

从现在这一刻开始染上第一种颜色--红色

彩虹的开端

加油，叶思丽！！！！

sentimental

2011-08-11T08:35:00.000-07:00

想念我的爱人

想念我的姐妹

想念一个人的生活

想念自由自在的生活

想念高中的生活

想念高中和姐妹在学校的生活

想念在班上大吵大闹的生活

想念和爱人吵架打闹姐妹忙着阻止的生活

想念毕业后还是忙着管着爱人的生活（尤其是在当兵着）

想念一起哭，一起笑，一起玩乐，一起伤心的你们

listen to the song

feel want to cry

want find someone to talk

want find someone to accompany me until i feel sleepy

but there's no one

what wrong with me??

mental problem!!

hahaXD

siao already...

hahaha~赢了！！赢了！！

2011-08-10T06:12:00.000-07:00

arh~excited and nervous!!

everytime watch men's double for malaysia team VS china team and korea team will make me nervous..

especially the third round..

koo kian kiat and tan boon heong just finished their match with china..

luckily, china team was a new team...

their are too new in badminton field..

but china good in every sport..

even though their are new..

fortunately, koo kian kiat and tan boon heong didn't disappoint the audiences^.^Y

first round M21-C6, second round M20-C22, third round M21-C15~

malaysia won china..hahaha~happy~woot!!XD

waiting the match between Malaysia and Korea...

because got leng zai -- lee yong dae~haha

i love badminton!!!

Malaysia Boleh!!!only for badminton teamsXD

waiting for the next match~

was headache to find a lawyer...

i hope everthing will be done smoothly~

very troublesome...sigh~

agreement~

2011-08-09T05:39:00.000-07:00

confusing for the agreement~

看到眼冒金星~.~

twinkle twinkle little star*.*

好难读哦~好多字~

i need help~

afternoon went to GUAN YIN TEMPLE to pray...

recently hard to sleep in night...

insomnia~

but yesterday feel better...

maybe woke up early in the morning...

i hope tonight can have a good night...

no, is every night...

beside that, heard a bad news from my mom...

sigh~

i hope everything will be fine...

may GUAN YIN MA bless you...

i dont like to hear bad news from mama...

i hope i can get a good news from mama about you in university...

this is what i hope now...

yea, maybe i got to celebrate birthday in uni...

but i know what should i wish already...

so i left 2 wish to think...hehehe

it is too early to talk bout my birthday..

because still long way to goXD

i really hope you can get cure as soon as possible...

your parents and sibling are worry about you...

GOD BLESS YOU~

monday~

2011-08-08T08:17:00.000-07:00

8th of august, monday, 23:18pm

woke up around 9.30am and preparing to lover's house fetch my lover..
after that we went to tgv bukit tinggi watched movie
really a nice and inspire movie...
after movie went to teluk pulai bak kut teh took our lunch..
meet my bro and mom there..
haha..so coincidence~
finish our lunch went to bukit tinggi again...
GM klang again=.=
bought a jacket...
around 4pm something arrived home..
then sit at home doing nothing...
online, listen to the songs, drink 5 packages of milo today, shared Panna Cotta with Bibu...
she like to eat...XD
will buy the ingredient and material to make again...
i love green tea♥
watch BWF badminton competition...
as everyone expected lee chong wei won the match...
waiting for the men's double...especially koo kian kiat with tan boon heong(malaysia) and lee yong dae with jung jae sung(korea)
after that went to watch movie again with high school friends..
is a not bad movie...
funny and very meaningful...
but sorry to my friends come late~paiseh~
seems like today very busy to have a date with friends...
enjoyable~

~i need freedom, headache to think a good reason to get the freedom>.<

~just two weeks, lose 2kg of body weight!!!
get shock to see my body weight...
really no appetite to eat...
even though lose body weight but i still look fluffy..
and my panda eyes look very very very serious...
damn...
looks pale~

~tiring day...feel sleepy but cant sleep..

*words cant bring me down..fighting..HA!!!!

where is my sunday?

2011-08-07T01:54:00.000-07:00

where is my sunday?

you told me this sunday will meet up...

keep said i always busy...

ask me dont put aeroplane...

but i received a super duper huge giant aeroplane...

no message...

actually yesterday had a very sweet and happy time with lover and jimui...

and i enjoyed the time with lover and jimui...

shopping, eat and fun together...

although gathering time was short...

but i feel happy...

even though just 10 minutes...

yesterday just meet up...

but now i miss you all already...

sigh...

when the next time to gathering??

feel like wanna go genting have a fun time...

love you all~muacks

think about yesterday sweet memories with jimui and lover...

made me feel better even though i misunderstand someone...

i admit i feel angry...

but still want to thank you for helping me this and that...

take leave to send me to penang and kl to solve the problems...

sorry for misunderstand you...

~~the panna cotta taste not bad...but the problem is too hard........

mom dont like to eat because she dont like the milk...

sis: not bad the taste but hard a bit...

KK: thank you(me) for the cake(panna cotta)...

*i replaced panna cotta as birthday cake to him...plus his birthday present...haha~

where is my sunday~T.T

the meaning of condemnation, judgement or criticize

2011-08-05T10:04:00.000-07:00

the meaning of condemnation, judgement or criticize...
above will be the one of you mean...
my sincere,
but misunderstood~
blah blah blah~

笑笑没烦恼~

~KARMA~

to my lover,

i hungry already,

tomorrow dont put me aeroplane yea~

diet~diet~diet~

puasa togetherXD

2011-08-05T06:01:00.000-07:00

Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces gone, left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(no matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
All the other times

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

no appetite

2011-08-04T06:22:00.000-07:00

recently no appetite to take any meal...

its been 2 weeks already...

can say that from morning took a piece of bread until night...

and dinner no appetite to eat even though mum cook a lot of food...

although i feel hungry...

but really no appetite...

scare to get anorexia...

but today get better...

ate some breads on morning and dinner ate chicken and ABC soup...

long time didn't eat rice already...

no wonder kai kian said i look thinner...

haha...

sigh~

no appetite, no mood~

maybe too late wake up and didnt eat...

anemia come to find me again...

dizzy~dizzy~dizzy~

i want eat...

i want eat the food that i like...

T.T

DESSERT~ SUSHI~ COLD DRINK~ SMOOTHIES~

hmm~yummy...

不想爱了~

2011-08-03T00:18:00.000-07:00

不想爱了。。

累了。。

不想哭了。。

笑了。。

不想孤单。。

爱了。。

不想想了。。

忘了。。

开心就好~

刚看了蓉芳的部落格。。

只有一个感想。。

加油，我们一起加油^^

祝福~真心祝福

但愿我身边的朋友，

不论是快分离上大学的，

正在忙着做工的，

正在计划着自己的事业的，

送上我的祝福，

加油吧~^^

笑笑没烦恼~XD

希望吧~>.<

on my way

2011-08-02T06:32:00.000-07:00

left one more month...

it is very close to the university life...

i need more and more date with my friends and family...

this week, saturday and sunday is for my 'lover'...

i cant wait to meet with my 'lover'^^

next week have to ask my jimui have a dinner or shopping...

anytime~anywhere~

i hope i can have a trip in this month before go to university...

i wish i can go to pulau pangkor...hmm, if can~

maybe going genting again with jimui end of this month...

i really need more and more and more date...

i wish i can have a sweet and happy memory before go to the university...

yeah, i on my way to a busy life in university...

excited...independent...freedom...

freedom from you...

i want eat panna cotta from my lover

if cant, i will force my lover buy for me

subang parade--dessert's bar

the dessert look delicious

i wanna go there...

hungry~>.<

i want eat ice at snow flake with my lover if lover got more time

i want eat sea food

crab~crab~crab

i want eat sushi

complicated~

2011-07-31T06:58:00.000-07:00

it is complicated...
i should not go the party yesterday...
i think this is destined will be happen...
as i learned "karma" from a lecturer from taiwan last friday in temple...
all things and matter is destined will be happen...
sigh~
arh...whatever~
i cant feel what you told me last few days...am i too greedy and expect to get more from you??

i should give some confidence to myself and you...i trust you^.^

Ps: sagittarius--from the horoscope album that i posted in FB and i some description is quite accurate...
1. 最会伤人心
2. 最爱往外跑
3. 最会丢三落四
4. 最不会看脸
射手座的感情世界-- 其实射手不是花心，只是放不下苦苦经营的感情，如果对方不珍惜，他会很潇洒的走开，可是又有谁知道私底下的射手会躲在自己的小小世界里一遍一遍的哭泣和委屈~
射手的热情和开放一切只是想要掩饰内心的痛苦和难受，因为自尊，因为面子。射手不像被人嘲笑，因为性格好强，又自我为中心。所以有的时候宁愿自己把最好的一面呈现出来。
射手不喜欢向别人提出要求，对朋友一点要求都不会提，如果想你提出要求代表对你的喜欢和信赖非同一般，不过在信赖一个人射手也很少开口要求什么。
射手座--鬼娃恰吉，
娃娃被附身，常是很多灵异作品中常用的桥段。而其中最知名的附身娃娃，我想非「鬼娃恰吉」不可！「灵异七杀」是很多人童年记忆中的可怕电影，观影的後遗症常会怀疑家中的娃娃是否在下一秒就复活杀戮。主角恰吉原本是尊可爱的语音娃娃，却因被一个追求永生的杀人犯灵魂附身，变身成不断杀戮，寻找肉体转世的恐怖娃娃。这系列原是经典恐怖片，直到第五集的「鬼娃也有种」，开始转型成恶搞恐怖片，为这系列的惊悚程度加入一丝爆笑的元素。
像鬼娃恰吉这种恐怖的娃娃怎麽能代表超阳光乐观的射手座呢？请听我娓娓道来！
射手座就像恰吉，无论岁数多大，看起来就像个小孩一样。
很多射手座的人从外表猜不出星座，但只要多讲几句话，让他「暖机」一下，你就能感受到他阳光开朗的笑语。
恰吉展开杀戮是为了求得永生，射手座的叛逆是为了保持内心的乌托邦世界。
这世界对射手座来说，太残忍也太有意思，残忍的是要逼射手座遵循「大人社会」的规范，那些繁文缛节丶就业结婚的形式，对思想自由的射手座实在很受不了。
射手座觉得他的生命该用来探索新的事物丶认识有趣的人，而非应对一些他眼中的「笨蛋」，所以他们会叛逆丶会搞怪，就像恰吉虽然拥有娃娃的躯体，却躲藏了一个反骨的灵魂。大部分的射手座是不太记恨的，然而，一旦你欺骗或背叛他，却还在他面前若无其事装好人，这可就踏到射手座「诚实为上」的地雷，他只好选择对你冷漠以对。
要知道，射手座对一个人冷漠，其实就是最大的报复。

copy from

CoNsの搞笑短片 music 图片と星座栋笃笑经典爱情语录

my answer~

2011-07-28T09:38:00.000-07:00

hmm~if i say so i got the same question as you ask me last night, how?
但是往往问题都是出现在我这里。。
不是想泼冷水。。
问题1，我快上大学了，不能时常见面永远都是问题发生的开端。。
问题2，我不想再当坏人。。虽然在他们的眼里我曾是。。
问题3，我不可以太自私，一直在浪费你的时间。。
但，有件事我必须承认。。
事情会搞到现在的地步都是我太意气用事。。
如果当时我的脾气能改一改就好。。
加上，我不擅长和人沟通。。
现在我学会说话必须小心，不能再像以前一样了。。
我学会以笑带过一切的情绪，就算心情再糟糕我都会告诉自己要笑。。
因为我的脸上的情绪往往是得罪人的武器（虽然发现得太迟）
我很想对你说声对不起以前对你所做的一切。。
虽然我现在的心情和感觉是和你一样的。。
但，我还是开不了口去解决问题的所在。。
因为我不是个果断的人。。。
我不懂你看到了，会是什么样的感觉。。

nightmare~

2011-07-27T09:51:00.000-07:00

had a nightmare again last night...

lately, the negative thought keep show in my mind...

suffer...

the thought that i never had before even though on the same thing and same person...

i feel bad to had such thought...

i cant control the feeling and the negative thought and it just keep show up in my mind...

keep asking myself...why??

what happen to me?

is it rebellious??

the rebellious come in the wrong time and it is too late...

i hope i can control myself not to being so rebel and i hope the negative thought get away from me...

feel so sorry to have such thought...

but fortunately, i didnt show it to the person i care...

i hope it can get lost before i go to the university...

lastly, i 55iw you...(learn from cheng nee)^.^

-untitle-

2011-07-24T08:20:00.000-07:00

今天用了很‘特别’的方式起床---
11点多就起身了，本来打算多睡几个小时，
怎知，向换个睡觉的方式，
结果，屁股撞向单人床的架子。。
还发出很大声地声音。。
因为习惯睡地上了>.<
所以今天睡醒的方式不是自然醒而是痛醒和被姐的笑声吵醒。。
听见她在笑，我也笑了起来。。
因为碰撞声真的很大声。。
平时睡觉一个睡姿可以一觉到醒为止。。
我想是因为发恶梦吧。。
一直翻来翻去的。。
梦见BIBU生病了，而且是很恐怖的病。。
很多苍蝇和小强一直在BIBU身上。。
BIBU的颈项全部都是苍蝇的蛋。。
很恐怖。。
有可能是日有所思夜有所梦吧。。
快上大学了，BIBU不能陪在我身边。。
很怕它会在我不再的时候离开我。。。
>.<
很想带它去大学。。
但是不可能的事。。。
很不舍得T..T
下午去了bangsar village 和 sunway pyramid..
我的东西齐全了，
搞定大学要的东西就可以开始收拾我的行李了。。
再来看缺少了什么东西再补一补。。
过后要跟妈咪学习怎样洗衣服了>.<
haiz~~~

1 month and 21 days to go~

2011-07-16T01:27:00.000-07:00

heard most of my friends success get into the university...

congratulation to them^^

yea, left 1 month and 21 days to go...

very excited...

and very worry~>.<

feel excited for the university life...

before never think that i can get into the university...

because im not the type of 'clever' in study...

excitied for have a new friends, new life and knowledge that i will learn in university...

feel worry because i scare that i cant follow up the lesson and the assignment coming soon...

hope everything will be smoothly in university...

before go to the university, got alot of stuff that i havent buy yet...

t-shirt, jeans, track suit, accessories for my lappy, and .............

too many stuff have to buy..

i scare buy too many things and cant put inside my luggage..

i hope that i remember to bring my blanket and my lover pillows...

without my pillows is hard for me stay at the far place for 3 years>.<

i hope that i can remember bring all the stuff that i need...

because i too 'dai tao har'

excited, worry, happy, sad, not willing to leave my parents and siblings...T.T

but i will keep climbing to achieve my target...

start from now, the 'chain' will be my 'energy' to keep climbing...

fighto~i can do it~^^

pink_ tears_sad_crying

2011-07-11T08:29:00.000-07:00

如果能陪我直到我想回家为止，那该多好~

should i buy or not??

2011-07-11T02:06:00.000-07:00

last week went to MBO, there got book sale..

got alot of not fiction books...

i found some graphics books there...

feel like want to buy the book as a reference book to gain idea..

but, too expensive>.<

how???

a book needed RM 59.90!!!

i spend a lot of money recently..

but the most money i spend for nothing...

and got alot of staff need to buy for university...

hmm, should i just buy it?

it is good for me...

hmm, let see how tomorrow first...

or ask bro accompany me to buy?

arhh, whatever~

just buy ba~~~~~>.<

伤脑筋哟~~~

untitle

2011-07-05T08:56:00.000-07:00

i found out what i shouldn't know...

and this feeling i still can remember since 2008

now, i have the same feeling..

i was lose control just now when i saw the blog...

before going out with friends, i choose to read the blog...

after read the recently blog that you posted,

i totally lose control...

i keep cry, my tears keep coming out from my eyes..

i tried my best to control my feeling when meet with my friends...

i think i make it...

last time i used to take 2 years to control my feeling...

now, i don't know i have to use how many days to calm down...

i thought it is over already...

but i'm wrong...

i don't want the thing become worse at the end...

i hope you can care about our feeling...

espeacially them...

remember, you have a happiness family...

i hope the memory you had can throw away as you want to do right now...

i hope this time can over the thing between you and ......

i really hope...

i can't take it any more...

i can't stand it any more...

i know you hurt and sad...

please care about us...

i don't want to lose you...

i don't want to see the thing become worse and worse...

god, if you hear me, i hope this time can let them end like this...

please forgive me to being selfish...

期待与舍不得

2011-07-02T01:20:00.000-07:00

在这期间，心里的情绪一直的不稳定。。
以平常心去对待一切。。
尽量低调。。
怕知道的多反而影响我的情绪让我想离开这里。。
但一次又一次的面试，
让我知道我与现实越来越靠近。。
平时的我一直的逃避现实而生活在我的世界里。。
现在，我已无法去逃避。。
也让我发现我知道的并不多。。
原来我的知识只那么一点。。
让我觉得我是多么的失败。。
对自己彻底的失望。。
我虽然讨厌面试，
但这让我知道现实是多么的残酷。。
知识是多么的重要。。
我想我必须走出来勇敢的去面对。。
虽然外表一直的在装着坚强。。
其实心里的不舍和害怕却与时间的到来而有增无减。。
一直装着一副很独立的样子。。
现在有点怕那一段时间没妈妈的陪伴。。
其实我很怕一个人。。
现在还剩2个月的时间了。。
我会好好的珍惜的^^
有点小孩子的脾气:p
期待新的生活让我去成长。。
不容易被现实打倒。。
害怕胆小的我，是应该变得独立与坚强。。
我会加油的^^
昨天被哥点到哭穴。。
因为我去读书了，
家里就只剩爸妈姐和弟。。
爸和姐忙做工，
就剩妈和弟。。
说到这，心里的感觉怪怪的。。
有点想哭的感觉。。
我怕当天我会哭的稀里哗啦的>.<我是爱哭鬼
因为家人是我的支柱。。
尤其是妈妈T.T
我只能尽量的控制我的情绪了
我不能再是一幅千金小姐的模样了。。
加油吧！！我想我能的~
给自己一个大大的微笑，信心会增加^^

awesome trip at bangkok, 17~21 june 2011

2011-06-23T04:57:00.001-07:00

bangkok is second country i've been..
after the trip and i just can use one word to describe bangkok...
AWESOME!!!!
i really enjoy at bangkok...
first day, went LCCT Terminal by taxi with bro and sis...
around 3pm ++(2pm++, bangkok time) reached bangkok airport
when check in we met uncle and antie there...
from singapore to bangkok just needed 2 hours 10 mins, malaysia to bangkok needed 2 hours and 5 mins
after that, xiao kang(van driver) fetch us to hotel..
we just out of the airport, tahan by police and get fine 500 baht around rm50
so 'lucky'~>.<
our hotel named LEFELIX and placed at SUKHUMVIT
the hotel service very good..i like it..
after check in to the hotel then it is time to dinner..
first dinner at bangkok is thailand food...
uncle bring us to BAN KHUN MAE..
i like the atmosphere of the restaurant..
plus thai's food is really delicious..
i ate a lot..
inside the restaurant got a girl playing thai's music instrument..
very relaxing...^^
after dinner we went to the night market near our hotel and we already start to shop...
first night in bangkok i already spend half of my money..
really siao..
sis, aunt and cousin keep shop non stop..
after shopping we went to massage...
i love massage..
i had a foot massage there..
very relaxing, pain and tickle..
keep laugh..
around 1am++ we back to hotel and i had a nice sleep^^
second day, is a shopping day~
woke up at 8 something and had the breakfast at coffee shop near our hotel..
after that we went to shopping..
i cant remember the name of the place..
but the things sell at there is really really cheap...
luckily we learn some thai with xiao kang before shopping..
i like to sha jia at there...it was funXD
for example, if the thing is expensive in thai call peng
if want to discount is noknoi
if the seller is a girl and she dont want to discount so have to praise them and they will give you a nice price...like beautiful(for girl) shui jin jin XD
thank you is kop khum kap
hi is sa wa di kap
i bought alot of shirt and a pair of shoe
shopping non stop
i like to shopping in bangkok
after shopping back to hotel to change a clean cloth and went to massage again^^
after massage we went to china town have our supper..
first we ate fried mee hun..
wow, really delicious..
i cant forget the taste of the fried mee hun..
it looks like very simple and nothing special..
but it is very delicious..
if got chance i will go there eat again~
after fried mee hun we ate pork rice, mee hun kuew with soup
i like the soup
after supper back to hotel had a own party in the room..
drink red wine ^^Y
i drink one and a half of cup i feel dizzy already..
around 2 something back to my room and had a nice sleep~
third day, went to shopping again..
shopping at PLATINUM
shop non stop eat non stop..
around 6pm something back to hotel and wear a nice dress for dinner and bar
dinner at ITALY restaurant near our hotel
after dinner we went to sky bar
i love sky bar.
the bar placed top of the hotel (64 floor)
there can see the view of the bangkok in night time..
and had some drinks at there..
but i was feel sick at the third day..
maybe eat too much and food poison>.<
after back to hotel..
enter the room the first place i go is toilet..
vomit~>.<
dizzy..
maybe the alcohol make me feel dizzy..
fourth day, uncle and aunt back to singapore and me, bro and sis have to find some place to go..
we went to siam paragon, china town and wat pho to see the temple in thailand..
the place must to go is GOLDEN MOUNTAIN, THAILAND INDUSTRY...
after that we went to china town to had our dinner and back to hotel rest..
fifth day, going back to malaysia...
i really enjoy the time with my beloved family...
me and my bro planning going to bangkok again before chinese new year...
it is worth....
i love bangkok

second job in this year 2011

2011-06-07T08:37:00.000-07:00

work again~

today 7th of june...

first day work in subway aeon bukit tinggi

what a tiring day..

work started on 9am and finished work on 10pm

plus, stand for whole day..

work in the kitchen with my bro prepare vegetables and meat..

wash all the tools..

work non stop...

my body and bone want separate already..

really tired..

break my record..

i still remember i worked in klang perade book shop..

i stand whole day but doing nothing..

this time, i stand whole day with work non stop from morning until night..

first day work i already have a thought will i continue work??

can i endure until this month???

i think my bro also have a same thought with me...

hahaha

but still can learn alot of things..and got free meal..subway bread...

i love bread^^

just can comfort myself..buck up..i can do it!!!=.=

good luck for us~

2011-06-05T22:43:00.000-07:00

this month received 2 news..

first news i get is the letter from kuok foundation berhad..

they informed me to have an interview on 30th of june..

coincidence on the day i have to attend light blue's "4course"--im not sure the spelling correct or not

second news from kai kian is the USM intake result coming out on 10th of june..

it is coming soon..

kai kian told me he feel nervous and i keep comfort him with 2 words -- inner peace

hahaha

actually i feel nervous too..

i hope i can get into USM

this is very important to me
and im going to the next step and complete it with all my effort for my future

even though the next step is hard..

but i think i can complete it and success..

change the mind who underestimating me..

this two news came on the right time

1oth of june have to check the intake result

if get it and the interview will become smoothly for me

because the scholarship i applied for the course is the one i want to study in USM
if both of it i get there will be no problem for me to continue study

i can reduce the stress for daddy to supply me the money for study

i just can hope and pray for me to get into the USM

my future is waiting for me to complete, to success it..

this is my chance to show them i can!!!!

GOD bless me

the end of the month~28th to 31st of may

2011-06-01T05:45:00.000-07:00

enjoyable on the end of the month from 28th of may to 31st of may

the first location is bagan lalang which placed at sepang

around 2.30pm, i followed mummy to tanjung sepat waiting my friends

and around 6pm they reached tanjung sepat and took me from there and continued the journey to our location--bagan lalang, sepang

we were lucky because stop raining and the weather is good enough for outdoor activity^^

the view of bagan lalang, sepang

i like the beach even though the beach not so clean but is better than port dickson

we took a lot of photos there

very happy and fun~

is time to play and take picture

say cheese~

me and young fang

me and dua eh (ching may)^^

and the sea was ebb tide

we went so far the level of the sea just reach our waist

and we played sand attack

it is fun and enjoyable to spend the time with my friends

after that, we went to tanjung sepat take our dinner sea food at Qing Ren Bridge

i feel embarrasing because i've been there since i born and i donno the way to Qing Ren Bridge

and bring them to Gano Farm=.=

although i felt embarrasing but still a good thing for me because i know the way to Gano Farm and Dua Pek Gong Temple^^

second location--bukit cahaya, shah alam

woke up around 6.45am and waiting yunn come to take me

but she reached my house on 8 something

because yong wen woke up late

but it is okay

we still enjoy at bukit cahaya

even though someone ffk

took some pictures at bukit cahaya with my jimui

me and yunn♥

me and yong wen♥

me and xiao qi♥

there were many peoples waiting to get the bicycle

so we decided to walk around the bukit

we walked to the four season house but close on that day

was tired to walk then we took the bus to the first bus station

then we took the bus go around the bukit cahaya

after that we decided to go another place because it is still early to going back home

so we decided to wet world at shah alam

but we dont know the way to wet world

so have to use GPS bring us to the location we want to

but the GPS bring us to the half way and tell us we already arrived the location

damn funny

but was luckily i called Zai ask the way to wet world

entered the wet world

made me feel disappointed

because the wet world too small and nothing to play

i keep nagging to my friends

and made a lot of funny things at there

even though four of us feel discomfiture in the pool with the big big sun

so we hided in the the pool which is the water just reach our legs

four of us sit in the pool chit chat

and then changed to another pool continued our topic

me and yong wen keep sing the weird song

my song--the chick song

yong wen's song--Tan Te

we keep laughing to each other because of the weird song and funny actions

and i laugh until the tears comes out

long long time no laugh with my jimui

i really miss the time we spend together at secondary school♥
i really do^^

around 5 something reached home

it was a wonderful day with my jimui ever

even though just four of us

it is enough for me to make me happy♥
and want to thanks them

because of jimui i can sleep on that night

insomnia go away from me

30th of may, went to genting highland with him

we took the bus from 1 utama on 9am and reached genting around 9.50am

we took the cable car to the highland and start to play around in the outdoor theme park

everytime went to genting, the first game must play the swing

after that, we played the space shoot

i never play before

it was the first time i play

so so so so so so exited

after play my hands keep shaking..

my tears comes out

i swear, i wont play the game any more

next game, roller coaster
although play before but this time was the first time i had--sit on the first roll

i close my eyes all the way

maybe i still not calm down after played the space shoot

after play the games, we went to first world theme park

walked around there and took some pictures

around 5pm we took the cable car and back to 1 utama

it was so coincidence

last year chinese new year went to genting highland i took the same cable with this year

after reached 1utama, took our dinner at subway

i love bread

delicious

yummy~

after dinner we walked around the shopping mall and around 10pm reached home

enjoy the day with him

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31st of may

mummy, big bro, small bro and i went to Long Men Restaurant at Pandamaran took our lunch

we met jessica and her mum there

after lunch, 6 of us went to MBO watched kungfu panda 2

around 5pm reached home

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i love to spend the time with my family and my friends

next location--bangkok, thailand

countdown-ing...
16 more days

"uncle's" wedding dinner

2011-05-22T04:42:00.000-07:00

21st of may,
大概1pm才起身然后准备去舅舅的结婚晚宴在tanjung sepat
在出发之前，有4个小时的时间给我们准备因为爸爸还没放工
我想还有多的时间给我准备，就慢吞吞的吃我的‘早餐’和看报纸
因为这是每天早上必做的事情。。
接着就是打扮的时间^^
这是有史以来花了2个小时来打扮，也是有史以来最久的一次。。
原因：姐房间有镜子不用跑来我房间和我争镜子。。
结果她不懂画什么妆，而且看起来像是被人打了两拳在眼上。。
哈哈，只好再画过。。而我只好再等她用我的镜子一边上网。。

画好妆，捉了弟弟来拍照:p
一边等待妈咪，爸爸和姐再一起出发。。

出发啦~

hmm, 在车上自恋了一下下^^

大概6点左右到了tanjung sepat, 也进了宴场。。

也和我的‘舅舅’第一次的相见。。

感觉怪怪的。。

听妈咪说他们会留一桌给我们。。

一进到宴场，我想我们的桌子应该是在前面或中间或是个好位子。。

因为妈咪毕竟是他的‘姐姐’。。

结果，我只能在心里说：真是个‘好’位子！！！！

彻底的失望~

难得打扮得美美的，却得来的却是。。。。。

这也算了，还有就是预料到的事--那里的人果然明知故问。。

知道了就算了，没必要问吧！！
在那也看到了妈咪的‘姐妹’和一班完全不熟的表哥姐。。
只能说庆幸的我们拥有了最温暖的大家庭

这是我最开心的♥

虽然用了很多没礼貌的言词来形容‘他们’

但也只能说了算了~

拥有了现在的家庭才是最重要的，之前的也只是曾经。

和姐的合成照^^

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晚宴后，回外婆家。。

本来妈咪打算住一晚的

因为弟发烧只好回家

但我留下来和姐跟他男友在外婆家住了一晚。。

这一晚，我发现了两件事。。

一，姐语出惊人！！！我只好让位睡地上~

二，我发现了外婆有点孤单。。

一间房子里就只住外婆一人。。

但这一晚也是最累的一晚。。

一整夜睡不着，有可能是第一次没人陪我睡地上。。

感觉怪怪的。。

加上一整夜躺的方向是一样的，

不敢转向窗口躺，

因为上一次发生了奇怪的事。。>.<

22nd of may,

早上起来，吃了早餐后小睡了一下。。

因为一整夜没睡。。

过后就和姐到了灵芝园和去了bagan lalang 海边。。

然后吃了午餐就准备回家了。。

好累哦。。

希望今天能睡，不然我的黑眼圈真的要像快上映的功夫熊猫一样了啦~>.<

cut hair again~

2011-05-16T05:31:00.000-07:00

today mommy woke me up around 9am then went to took our breakfast--bak kut teh

after that, around 12pm went to fetch brother then direct bring bibu cut it's hair

bibu's hair was so long

cant see it's eyes and keep drop hair

around 3.30pm went to bring back bibu from pet clinic
yea, this time it's hair cut nicer than last time
was satisfied^^
bibu looks cute..
new dog collar for bibu
red colour is more suitable for it
cute ♥

cut hair + new collar

total spend me RM110

it worth for me to spend this money^^

untitle~.~

2011-05-10T08:04:00.000-07:00

today woke up around 8.30am and accompany mommy to pasar pagi
i will woke up so early because of yesterday promise mommy and accompany she to pasar pagi
bought 2 pants and a box of underwear for brother then went to pandamaran ate roti canai
i was no mood to eat but i still forced myself to eat
after that, went to aunt's house
in aunt's house, uncle talked a lot of his experience to me
after listen to his story, i think a lot
and i hope this is still not too late
i regret but i hope i still can keep 'it' nicely even though already drop a few of 'it'
but the rest i'll try my best to keep in nice condition..
i really hope this is not too late~
today mood was bad
i hope i got a pair of wings and fly to the sky
yeah, i admit i always avoid anything that make me feel pressure or force
the pressure i feel more strong and this will make me run away
because i love freedom, no force and no pressure
but this is also one of my weakness
i'll try to change this weakness, because i have to do something that good for me and my future..
i must!!
i will try my best not to avoid 'you'
because i need friends:)

change contact lens~

2011-05-08T08:56:00.000-07:00

is time to change contact lens~

this is the first time i try another colour of contact lens--brown~

before that i always use grey..

but this time try the new colour^^

but this colour seem like not suitable for me..

feel weird when i wear it..

but still cant waste money and throw it into the dusbin..

luckily i bought a grey colour of contact lens for spare..

i like grey more than brown..

grey is the best♥
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i found that he still have a blog..

even though many things are changed

but in my heart your place is no one can replace it~

wish you all the best^^

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recently we just keep quarrel about small thing..

dont know is you designedly or what..

but i know is you care bout me..

but seem like is good for both of us..

because before that we never quarrel..

or maybe i already change..

i keep changing my mood and my personalities..

i hope this is a good thing for me..

think too much~ahh, stop think!!

又一次~

2011-05-01T11:06:00.000-07:00

又一次的让我失望。。

果然不出我说料。。

算了吧，又不是第一次。。

我想去云顶的事还是不要抱太大的希望。。

因为会失望越大。。

算了，明天还是照着自己的计划走吧~

希望明天有车用。。不然那里都去不了。。

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说说开心的事。。

刚看完了slam dunk。。

虽然看过了很多次，还是和第一次看的心情一样很紧张。。

尤其是hanamichi sakuragi，虽然笨笨的又很冲动，

但他还是篮球里的达人^^

听说是真人故事哦~

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接下来还得计划去UM面试的事。。

希望一切顺利~

shopping~traveling♥

2011-05-01T01:19:00.000-07:00

i want shopping~~
a lot of stuff i want to buy..
but i dont have car..
my car still repairing..
i miss my car>.< without my car i cant go the place i want.. really got alot of stuff i want to buy..... before shopping i have to check my balance in my bank first^^ if not i will simply waste my money that i earn in 4 months before.. first thing i want to buy is a pair of slipper.. my toes is bruise..i cant wear high heels anymore.. must wait my toes recover.. really pain>.<
so i have to buy a comfortable and nice slipper that can protect my toes and can wear to gai gai~^^
second thing i want to buy is buy material to do a note book for her..
i promise her to do a note book for her^^♥
beside that, from the note book i make i can add it as my new design^^
third thing is contact lens..
my contact lens broken already..
forth is bring bibu to cut it hair..
although bring bibu cut hair have to spend RM75 (really expensive) but is good for bibu and mommy because it can look more clean and cute and mommy no need to clean bibu drop hair~
beside than spend money i still have to save my money for trips..
i hope this month really can go genting..i hope you dont ffk me again..
and save money for bangkok trip...
so excited^^♥

i ♥ the way you carry me

2011-04-29T05:17:00.000-07:00

it is a first time people carry me..
i always worry my weight
if got people want to carry me i always reject
because i scare they ask to carry me but at the end they are not enough energy to carry me because I'm too fat and heavy
but this time is different
even though i know i fat already and my weight is going up
but you still can carry me
i still remember the scene
i thought you are joke with me
but you just suddenly carry me without i say okay or I'm ready
and there is a lot of peoples
was very embarrassing people looking at us
but now you make me ♥ to be carry of people
because just feel like i no need to waste my energy to walk
and i still can reach the place i want to
you cant run away from me when i want you to carry me^^
because i just ♥ the way you carry me

the way to penang usm interview

2011-04-26T07:42:00.000-07:00

around 8.30am he came to my house to take me and we went to subang jaya ktm station to meet with kai kian and his sister
after that, we went to bought some bread as our breakfastthen start our journey to Pulau Penang for USM interview~

i like green~

make me feel relax and fresh~

on the success way

hopefully i can get into USM

took alot of photos in car with kai kian, his sis and zai zai^^

although the way to Penang took few hours but it is worth..

but still have to thanks zai zai willing to help us..
thank you^^

finally, we reached Penang around 12.30pm

was a good weather on that day^^

reached Penang, first thing to do is checked in the hotel

rest for a while because the driver was tired even though he didnt say anything^^

the KFC just infront of the hotel..

i was discover all the building in Penang is England style

just like the KFC..and hong leong bank in Penang also used England style..

very unique~

after rest, our stomach was calling us..

so we went the restaurant near our hotel to fill up our stomach
the hokien in Penang is different with the hokien in Selangor..

Penang Hokien mix with TeowChiew

i like this photo

the parking machine in Penang was different in Selangor..

it just like antique

but still working^^
very interest~

after took our lunch

we went to find the way to USM because scare cant reach USM on time..

but we was very lucky because the way from our hotel to USM just needed 20 minutes..

after that, we went to bukit bendera..
but raining when we arrived bukit bendera..
so we decided change place - to Kek Lok Si
Kek Lok Si just beside Bukit bendera
went there to pray for the interview

i bought 3 wishing ribbon
1. wish can success for interview and studies
2. wish my family 出入平安
3. wish my family 合家欢庆

bear~~~~~

zodiac of my year - goat^^
bear~~BEAR~~~

nice weather at Kek Lok Si~

passed by the street under Kek Lok Si
and i bought 2 T-shirt
1 is for me and 1 is for her^^
mine is 我是靓女
for her is 我是美女
hahahaha..
it is funny..
but i no dare to wear the T-shirt on street:p
but i warning she must wearXD

woot~leng luiXXD
hahaha..

is dinner time~
hmm..Penang's food is nice but not nice as Selangor..
the taste of food in Penang is light..
but still can eat lar~XD

wan tan mee~asam laksa~shui gao~

alot of people in night time~

after treat our stomach we back to hotel to do 'homework' for interviewwe sat at living room of Hotel Royal Penang to online find some information for our course

hahahaha~

kai kian wear the slipper was provide by hotel..

very funny^^

doing 'homework' + take self picture:P

around 6.15am woke up to prepare for interivew..

because will traffic jam and we have to wake up early to prepare for the interivew..

alot of students from different state was gathering beside the dewan budaya to write down their name for the interview..

kai kian course is seni halus(fine art)

his course just have 2 or 3 groups..

but for my course grafik komunikasi (graphic communication) around 3 to 4 groups..

because the course i take was popular..

kai kian was in the B group and i was in C group..

kai kian was the first one to interview..

first section of interview is sketching just as i thought

second section is meet with the panel in USM to judge our performance and our past work

i wait there around 2 hours only my turn to interview..

kai kian finished his interview already but i still wait at the hall to wait for

my turn..

around 10am something and finally my turn to interview..

in the first section--i cant do my best to sketch because had a long time didnt practice for it..

plus i wear contact lens i cant see clearly for the subject..

and we only have 20 minutes to finish sketching..

i really hate the people keep annoying beside me to inform us left how many time to finish our sketching..

because will make me feel nervous and cant concentrate sketching..

i cant finish my drawing..

after times up..

feel damn angry to myself..

because cant finish my work and my drawing just like shit..

second section--meet up the panels..

the panels like dont care the drawing in first section..

but i was lucky, because the panels was interest on my sketching Pn Norhayati trained us before..

got 3 panels inside the room..

after they ask to fill up the name and they ask us to pass up the work for them to judge..

one of the young panel saw my form 6 sketching and passed it to an old panel

the old panel was ask me 2 times of my name..

maybe they are interest for my sketcing???

but i was no confidence to answer they questions..

haiz~

but i still hope i can get into USM

after the interivew was around 12pm something..

i feel disappointed to myself and feel angry..

because i cant do my best for the interview.

i nearly lose control after the first section..

maybe i was too nervous..

after interview, we went to find something eat..

on the way, we saw Penang Time Square..

so we took our lunch inside the Penang Time Square..

alot of food inside Time Square..

after lunch, we went to Bukit Bendera again..

but this time same as the first day we went to Bukit Bendera..

when arrived, because of too tired and we decided to back homeXD

i was sleep for 2 hours inside the car..

and was pouring on the way back to klang..

around 6pm, finally we reached KL

and we decided find some desert at KL

we took desert in K .T. Z. Food

yummy~

around 7 something zai zai took kai kian and his back to their place near UM

after that is my turn back to my place..

really a tiring day..

the time was pack..

around 10pm i arrived home..

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now, is the time for next interview--UMS teknologi seni rekaan at UM

will do my best to get two of the university..

but i still hope i can get into USM

god bless me~

fighting~can do it...

damn it!!

2011-04-21T04:25:00.000-07:00

i hopefully i can leave that place as soon as possible!!!

i just do nothing but i get scolded by GE7..

what the fuck!!

this time i really angry..

i was just ask by yatie to call Nizam because delivery order at Nizam there..

Yatie ask me to call Nizam and ask him to pass the delivery order to Ge7..

Nizam there was no problem..

but when i just start my conversation with Ge7 and i haven't finish yet my talk..

you scold me why don't want to pass for you earlier???

hey, if the delivery in my hand i will pass for your earlier okay..

and this is not my fault..

and i just ask from Yatie to call you inform that the delivery order at Nizam there and try to discuss with him how to meet and get the delivery order from Nizam...

and this is not my order is Yatie..

haven't finish my talk simply shoot people...

our conversation not finish yet suddenly no line or his phone no battery..

i keep call back but was no people answer my call..

no idea..i just can ask Irene to help me settle this (Yatie said if anything just ask Irene)

i told Irene all about this and Irene said today cant make it to pass the delivery order to Ge7..

Irene call and ask Yatie bout this but.......

after Irene talk to Yatie, Yatie call back to me and said: want to knock my head!!

hey, i trying my best to do everything without mistake..

okay~fine....i admit i cant memorize everything i done..even though i done the work after few hours i will forget all of it if you ask...

i know this is my weakness...

but i trying my best to do everything in order..

and i know you all keep say behind me because i got Mr Yap to cover me even though i do a big mistake...

I'm tired of this...

i hope i can get out of this place as soon as possible...

is time for me to countdown to leaving this suck place...

i hate people simply scold without a reason!!!!

happy family ♥

2011-04-17T01:19:00.000-07:00

thankful i born in this family..

I'm glad I'm one of the family..

every time i feel down, feel lonely and unhappy..

i always have you beside me -- my family especially is mommy..

i can feel your warm, your care and your love..

i like to chat with regarding all of my thing because you always willing to listen to me and give me advise..

but one thing always happen when i chat with you i will feel like want to cry..XD

whether i don't have much of friends and in relationship..

i always feel happy stay with you more than them..

this is i can confirm with 100%

because you know me as well.. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

just back from subang have a lunch with mommy, brother, sis and KK when arrived the restaurant..

something funny happen..

our car park opposite the restaurant and we have across the road.. suddenly KK hold my hand to across the road..

in that second..

i feel weird..

why he hold my hand and there is no car on the road..

mommy and sis keep on laugh and said: hey, you hold wrong person's hand...

hahahaha he was very embarrassing..

maybe sis and me wore the same colour T-shirt, black hair, with spec and our height are same..

haha..

after finish the lunch..

on the way back home i recall mommy told me before she also had a experience recognize wrong person(papa)

because papa and his bro are twins..XD hahahaha...

funny experience~

happy happy happy~

♥ i love my family ♥

♥siao po~

2011-04-15T09:00:00.000-07:00

siao po~where are you?

got alot of thing want to tell you..

but you said this week free..

and im waiting for you..

but where are you?

please larh~dont always let people to invite and to ask you out..

this time have to wait you to ask me out already..

i will endure it and wait for you..

let me see how long you let me wait for~

家庭会议

2011-04-15T08:09:00.001-07:00

我最不想被通知有家庭会议。。

从小每一次又家庭会议一定是又很重大的事情发生。。

每一次都是他们五兄弟聚在一起讨论如何解决事情。。、

这次我只看到二伯，二嫂，堂哥，爸爸，妈妈和一个像是大伯的（没看清楚）到小伯家。。

会议才刚开始，就听到爸爸的声音。。

听不清楚，但我可以很肯定地是爸爸骂他了。。

他也回口顶我爸爸。。

爸爸就很生气的走回家了。。

我想事情真的是闹大了。。

爸爸还是不能忍，结果。。。。。

我想爸爸是出自于关心才会骂的吧。。

只是他不领情。。

会议还在进行着。。

我的心感觉怪怪的。。

我不想再看到不快乐和不好的事发生在我家庭。。

虽然我只是晚辈。。

我希望他可以为自己的老婆和孩子想想。。

毕竟，如妈妈说的：他已经是一只脚踩进棺材里了还不会想。。

我真的真的很希望一切可以解决，还可以想往常一样。。

妈妈不让小孩到小伯家去听。。

毕竟我们是晚辈。。

也虽然是晚辈，我没资格去诉说。。

虽然我知道什么是对与错。。

我有点担心。。

怎么办？

突然间听到妈妈的声音。。

他们也谈了起来。。

我家都能听见。。

只是很模糊。。

我真的越来越担心了。。

我希望一切都能顺利地解决。。

担心~

question mark???

2011-04-14T06:32:00.000-07:00

feel like want go to shopping..

i feel weird

im not a person who like to shopping..

dont know why recently keep have a feeling want to shopping..

maybe want to release my anger??

but i didnt feel any angry..

maybe moody??

yea, i admit got a bit moody..

but not so serious..after take a nap will be fine..

but still not yet make me feel like want to spend money..

maybe got too much of money??

no way!!i have to save money..

i think this is the last month i work in infinity..

last month and last salary...

hmm~maybe..

sot already@.@

feel like want to get another job before quit from infinity..

maybe will go interview for new job--TAKE AWAY

but who want to take me go for work and take me back home after work??

drive???my car still havent finish repair yet...

mommy??i dont want mommy feel tired..

how how how????

maybe not going for the interview..

but how to make money??

how to save money for my next trip??

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

actually i feel bad now..

start from yesterday i heard a bad news from mommy..

even though not my business..

but i still feel bad..

i hope papa and his brothers can settle this problem..

i dont want to see any bad things happen to my family..

but i still feel happy because i born in this family..

feel happy im your daughter..

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

how to diet??

my weight keep up and up and up..

i dont want to be fat..

how to diet??????

why i different with other??

people work because of tired the weight will decrease..

but me???

feel tired and no time to take my breakfast and only take my lunch every day..

my weight keep increase..

i dont want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i will fight with those fat!!!!

no more fat...

wei, fat!!!dont challenge me...

i will burn you kao kao!!!!!

目标快达成了~

2011-04-12T09:03:00.000-07:00

我说过我一定要存钱

为了我大学的生活不会那么的辛苦

虽然现在离目标还是有一点点的距离

但至少距离是不远的

所以我打算在打一份工

为了钱，我宁愿牺牲一点的精神和体力

也为了6月的旅行--泰国曼谷

我很期待和家人的旅行

很希望6月快点的到达

也希望得到的大学和课程是我理想要的

再希望大学的生活不要让我失望因为我很期待

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

最近放工了都呆在家

没朋友约

老朋友看起来都很忙

尤其是她

看起来很忙

却被我发现跑道槟城去玩了

通知一声也没有

也不能怪

都有了新的朋友和生活

我想我们也很久没联络了

信息你问你几时的空吗，得到的回复就只有两个字--next week

已经是next week 了小姐

每次就都是我在约

有时对你抱怨也闷了

就不关心一下下吗？？

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

已经离题了

题目不是说关于目标吗？？

却谈到她那去了

算了，继续向目标前进~

很难熬

2011-04-01T01:02:00.000-07:00

我想这一段时间对我来说是最难熬的。。

我很想当做过了就算了。。

但一直出现在我脑海里。。

昨晚睡得不是很好，

虽然妈咪和我同房。。

当关掉灯的那瞬间，我偷偷的哭了。。

妈咪还以为我伤风。。

在睡觉之前我忍得很辛苦。。

只有在关灯时偷偷哭。。

一闭上眼睛，

脑海里就浮现意外发生的那一瞬间。。

虽然很短暂，不到3秒。。

却让我很难忘加上意外后的心里障碍。。

很辛苦。。

今天下午1点多，妈咪带我去吃斋菜。。

过后就带我到港口附近的观音亭拜拜。。

在从家里到很多地方的路程，我的心一直是很害怕的。。

又刚巧妈咪要去进电话钱有一辆摩托闯红灯，让我又受惊吓。。

还有要过马路的印度女生，也让我受惊吓。

虽然只是坐在旁边，驾车的人不是我。。

我还很害怕。。

但妈咪对我说了一句：拜完了就没事了。。

我又偷偷的掉眼泪。。

家人--妈咪一直在安慰我。。

爸爸没对我发脾气反而很平静的帮我解决意外后的手脚。。让我觉得之前对爸爸的不满一次给删除了。。我不会再怀疑爸爸对我的爱。。

姐也在我fb里给与我的打气，我还对妈咪抱怨说我放生意外她竟然没关心我一下，一到家就出门了。。但我不会再这样想，有你的一句话我就足够了~

弟虽然不懂事，但也因为他的不懂，做出奇奇怪怪的事让我笑。。这对我也足够了。。

哥虽然忙大学的事，他不懂我发生意外了。。我想让他知道了，他一定第一时间打电话回来慰问。。我最了解你的性格。。

你们给与的力量我会尽力的吸收去克服我的心里障碍。。

我也在这里跟他说声对不起，让你受伤了。。

虽然我们两方都有错。。

我希望你的伤势快点好起来。。

我的心里障碍会减少一半。。

我想这是上天要我面对的考验。。

我会接受加上家人的爱与支持。。

我一定能克服的。。

虽然难熬。。

但我知道我能的，只要给我一点时间。。

我能的，加油叶思丽。。

is it april's fool?

2011-03-31T07:02:00.000-07:00

i keep ask myself..is it april's fool??

this is too much for me..

i never think this will happen to me..

never ever..

yea, i admit i was scare because too much blood and nobody answer my call..

after i get mommy's call i feel thanks god..

but now everything settle..

but i still feel something wrong..

maybe no mood..

feel like now got somebody accompany beside me..

anyone~please~

just stay beside me for a while..

but dont say anything to me..

dont ask anything..

just stay beside me and let me cry..

this is only the way for me to release bad mood..

i think this will never happen to me..

because bad luck always around me since i born..

i cant run away..

as my mom said: if it really want come to you, you will no chance to avoid..

and yes, i admit too both of us got wrong..

i should stop..

feel like want to stay at home..

wait until my mood coming back..

feel like want to quit from work..

because i feel like dont want to step outside..

feel like want to cry..

because i was scare..

feel like want you to stay beside me now..

but it is impossible..

at least, i still have to thanks god..

because i still alive..

papa didnt scold me..

out of my thought..

mama comfort me..

let me cant stay strong and control my feeling..

really feel like want to cry..

and to the peoples who like my status in facebook..

it was hurt..

because they know nothing and simply like my status..

especially 'you'

if you ask..i would like to share with you..

but i know, u will never do this to me again..

by the way, tomorrow not going to work..

take one day leave.

monday i still have to face it in office..

i hate people busy body about me..

i really hate..

just let me cry now..

爱哭的我~

2011-03-30T05:19:00.000-07:00

爱哭的我，没错这就是我。。虽然很多时候都坚持，扮坚强。。但我只能说我太容易哭了，容易得太离谱了！！从去年就迷上了FAIRY TAIL，因为高中大考只好忍耐不继续追下去。。现在毕业了，有太多的时间让我观看这部动漫。。我很想大声地说：太好看了。。今天看了第71集，有点感动。。我竟然哭了>.< 哇~哇~哇~ 现在继续接第72集^^ 看完第72集我就得等到下个星期二了。。我在想为什么不继续放到大结局？？一集一集播放，有时让我等到不耐烦。。不过还是会继续最下去~ yea, fairy tail 万岁！！！

2011-03-27T05:16:00.000-07:00

is beach time!!!!!

2点多抵达Port Dickson.

第一件做的事就是到hotel外的游泳池游泳。

水蛮清洁的。

在那也认识了一些新朋友。

也和几位马来同胞玩水上猴子强球。

大概5点多我们再出发到海边戏水。虽然海滩是没想像的大和清洁，但还蛮享受的。很庆幸，因为当天的天气还蛮好的，虽然太阳大了一点。

是时间拍照啦~

拍了很多合照，

最大的那张本来是要跳起在拍的，

但没拍到反而拍到我跌倒，

原因是因为站不稳加上海浪。

还好辉煌手脚快速的捉住我的手，

不然一定跌进海里喝盐水了*。*

认识了很多新朋友，蛮谈得来的，很高兴认识他们。照片里穿红衣的女生和我同名哦~ 老实说有事我会误会有人在叫我但其实不是我而是和我同名的〉.〈

在沙滩上是不能错过埋人的游戏。照片里的不幸者，本来只是负责挖开沙让哪位不幸者好好的‘享受’被埋的滋味，但万万没想到是自己被选中了。是天注定的，哈 Ps：未满十八岁的不宜观赏以上照片;p 除了埋人，水上游戏是不能错过的。但因为有点没心情玩加上有点恐惧，只玩了不翻船的香蕉船。 bbq时间到啦~ 当天只吃了2片面包和一杯美禄加上晚了一整天，肚子超饿的。在海边bbq和steamboat~ 难得的经验。加上没椅子，只好站着吃。脚酸了也只好随便的找了个地方坐在地上喝啤酒谈天~ 享受^^

yummy yummy~ 吃完喝完回房后觉得闷闷的，当时也半夜12点多了，到回楼下的游泳池旁谈天拍照加喂蚊子，哈当天3点多才舍得睡觉~ 隔天，7点多被楼下游泳池戏水的游客吵醒了，因为太累了又继续睡到9点多才舍得从床上起来洗脸刷牙换衣又跑到游泳池游泳。大概1点多回房冲洗吃‘早餐’-steamboat 吃饱休息了一下下也是事后要回家了。回家之前我们来了个大合照留念:) 回家啦~ 在巴士上自恋了一下下。想纪念曾经到过port dickson..因为是第一次^^ 谢谢有参与的朋友们，我蛮享受的。 ps: 虽然我样子是看起来有点静，但人是不可貌相的XD

finally my car break down o.olll

2011-03-22T06:03:00.000-07:00

before the car break down i still think that it wont happen and my little red car everything still okay..
but i was wrong..
it break down at bukit tinggi jusco..
at the jusco's traffic light my car was like 'dancing' cant move smoothly and the traffic light turn 2 times green i still at the same road same place...
the car behind me keep horn me..
damn stupid..
didnt see my car put the double signal?!
what to do??i only can drive slowly to petronas wait my mom come to save me..
wait mom for half hour wait the technical personnel for 1 hour plus..
reach home about 8.30pm..
damn unlucky~>.<
after done repair my car at petronas i drove my mom's car and my mom drove my car back home..
i was not comfortable while driving my mom's car..
i like drive manual than auto..:p
by the way, i still arrived home safety^^
thanks to my mommy accompany me at petronas wait for the technical personnel^^
it was a good experience in this month..
before that i was fined by police because of forget to pay the parking fee with RM30..
hahaha..
a lot of 'first' time in this month..XD

happy birthday to mommy~

2011-03-20T07:39:00.000-07:00

celebrate mommy birthday at Fish Manhattan in Aeon Bukit Tinggi with my beloved family~

sweet~daddy and mommy^^
before the yummy food come took some pictures of mommy and daddy..
sweet memories

finally, yuuummmy foods coming~
oysters, shrimps, fishes, chicken, french frieds and drinks~
sister and KK bought a cake to mommy..
even though the cake is not so nice but cute:p

enjoy and having fun with my family..
took alot of photos
sweet memories of us..
but still left my bro..
nevermind..
waiting his back^^

lastly, wish mommy happy birthday and healthy always..
miii~love you~

stupid jpa website!!

2011-03-20T02:55:00.001-07:00

ahhh!! i cant find what i want in jpa website..
damn pek cek now..
stupid jpa website...
and i just saw yayasan bursa malaysia just for the student who get 2As and above..
waste my mom money to photostate...
why everything not going smoothly as i thought...
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~
i have to control my mood.
today is mom's birthday, i dont want to destroy the atmosphere..
relax..think positive..
i can handle and settle all of uni stuff..
believe on myself is more important..
dont think what they said..
just be myself..
fighting
i can do it...
ha!!!!!!!!!

actually feel abit regret..
actually i can get better result that the result i get now..
i should get better result for futher study..
regret..

start with here

2011-03-19T07:17:00.000-07:00

delete all the past and start my new life.
is time to prepare for the future.
recently busy apply for university and scholarships.
i hope everything is going smoothly.
i hope i can get the university and course that i want.
waiting for my new life in university.

beside that, i cant wait for this saturday..
yeah~im going to port dickson with my friends.
i will enjoy kao kao!!
hey, you~~ pork dickson, wait for me..
wait for me to build some sweet memories with you.
wait me wait me~~~~

i just finish watch korean drama<原来是美男>
and i get to know a new group of boy band--CN BLUE
love them~ha!!

lastly, i miss my jimui..
>.<>
miss them so much~
see this post remember to find me yea~
muacks~<3

2011-03-19T03:29:00.000-07:00

rock angel

2012 的农历新年

回家的感觉真好~

封闭起来了

what your favourite colour says about you

结束了

shopping mood on!!

recently

重新开始

divertido~

life~

untitle~

miss bibu very muchT.T

queensbay to batu ferringhi

it is hard to be a leader

it is time to stand up and show it

holidays

学坚强

first day in penang

给你的信

准备好了

犯贱

정용화 그리워서

redo, redo, redo!!!!!!!

好心情

BIBU sick again~heartacheT.T

rainbow bridge

变身成白纸

sentimental

hahaha~赢了！！赢了！！

agreement~

monday~

where is my sunday?

the meaning of condemnation, judgement or criticize

no appetite

不想爱了~

on my way

complicated~

my answer~

nightmare~

-untitle-

1 month and 21 days to go~

pink_ tears_sad_crying

should i buy or not??

untitle

期待与舍不得

awesome trip at bangkok, 17~21 june 2011

second job in this year 2011

good luck for us~

the end of the month~28th to 31st of may

"uncle's" wedding dinner

cut hair again~

最近~

untitle~.~

change contact lens~

又一次~

shopping~traveling♥

i ♥ the way you carry me

the way to penang usm interview

damn it!!

happy family ♥

♥siao po~

家庭会议

question mark???

目标快达成了~

很难熬

is it april's fool?

爱哭的我~

finally my car break down o.olll

happy birthday to mommy~

stupid jpa website!!

start with here