2012 的农历新年

今年的新年花了4天在外婆家~
简简单单的新年~
虽然没有去年来的大团圆，但还是像以往的热闹~
虽然还在守百天里，但大家都感觉到了‘她’始终在我们的身边~
虽然有些人禁忌，但大部分的家人都回家了~
一样的热闹~
初一，一家大小回了外婆家，带了bibu一起~
还好她乖乖的呆在车里直到外婆家，但一到外婆家有可能感到陌生和紧张，在地上洒满了‘黄金’
第一天，虽然只有我们一家，二姨一家，小姑一家和舅舅
但从第一天开始没停的在吃~
没能庆祝新年但还是吃不停~
初二，三，是最热闹的两天。
姑姑们都到齐了，怀念的是他们的声音与热情
总是把家里的气氛带到最高点，笑声连连~
初四，大家都回到各自的家，简简单单的大团圆，只能说没什么比亲情重要~
一到家，是姐妹的时间了~
马上驾车到老幺家拜年，老婆和姐妹到齐
玩疯一整天，隔天初五和老幺和老婆去了看戏，逆战不错看^^
初六与初七到了朋友家拜年与赌博~小输三令吉。
今天初七，拜了年到了观音厅拜拜，保平安~
就这样，新年过了一半，还有一个星期的新年~
新年过了就得回到了现实~唉~
但还是把新年过的开开心心和愉快的回忆~
新年过了就是情人节了
情人节过了就得回槟城了。
还真的是不舍的~
希望今年可以过得顺顺利利，平平安安，家人身体健康就足够了~不贪心~:)
to be continue。。。

回家的感觉真好~

昨天下午3点出就到了setia alam 的巴士总站

可是咪的电话，家里的电话都没人接

有点慌张和担心

胡思乱想的

眼泪不受控制的流了

想太多~

打了电话给大哥，刚巧哥刚到巴生。

让他来接我回家。

最后打了电话给姐，还我白担心了一场。（只是家里没人，咪的电话有问题，还以为。。。）

但，哥到了巴士站，咪也刚到来接我，结果行李往哥的车放而我跟了咪的车平安回到家^^

车上，告诉了咪关于我梦见了外婆~

故事过程只发现我拼命的哏咽，发现咪掉眼泪，我也解放这三个礼拜的心情~

原来不止我一个梦见外婆，小姑也梦见了。。而且内容很接近~

我只想说，您永远都会活在我们的心中~

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农历新年只剩一天，很期待初一回外婆家的大团圆。

只是少了她~

今年新衣买的不多，没什么心情购物~

也刚刚发现到，今年我忘了买红色的衣或裙。

衣服的颜色都是暗色，但给自己染了红色指甲。。（一个新年的小小意头）

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发现回到家，很多事情都改变了。

尤其是朋友方面~

朋友不多，

一个月的放假，

有点难过~

我想新年后的我应该是大部分的时间都呆在家发呆上网吧~

但我都会把握一半的时间陪在咪的身边~

希望能陪她多一点在开学之前~

在结束今天的故事前，想分享一些关于我‘女儿’^^

她剪了短发，身体健康，还是一样的可爱。

但我发现到，她变得更加的爱粘我。

在我踏进家，她那兴奋+开心+欢迎的迎接我的归来^^

开心~

还发现到，她越变越懂得如何去享受！！

越来越铁齿。

尽然在我不注意的时候，跳上了沙发睡觉！！

如何叫她都叫不下沙发。

只能用硬的~装生气~

还有，咪说她跳上车当咪开车门时，

没发现她跳上车不小心车门夹到了她~

幸运的是没受伤^^

我想我的小小意见-带bibu回外婆家已经得到了咪的批准了。

希望带的成^^

封闭起来了

今天的气氛是好的，是开心的，是热闹的
但还是假装着开心，
外表和心里虽是在同一个人身上却带着不一样的面具
假装成开心是多么的辛苦
说了一大堆不可能从我嘴巴说出的话
做了一些不是真正的我
但，不想破坏气氛
还是尽我所能的把事情搞好
虽然惊喜早就被揭穿
大家还是开开心心的为今天的寿星婆庆祝生日
把半间的pizzahut搞的脏兮兮的
总觉得，有art students 出现的地方一定会被搞得乱七八糟
但大家开心就好
hmm, 再给我几个星期的时间
我很快就会复原~
不再带着假装开心的面具~
现在的我需要的是时间与亲情~
被封闭了起来，
时间是最好的钥匙来打开封闭的门。

晚安了。

what your favourite colour says about you

Your favourite colour can say a lot more about you than you might think. Different colours have different associations. Dr Max Luscher invented the Luscher colour test in 1947. It is now used by psychologists to reveal hidden moods and stresses. Advertisers and designers also use it.

my favourite colour is grey/gray.

• grey indicates hiding something or not wanting to get involved (accurate!!!)


• grey symbolized with brainy, class, efficiency, sophistication, confidence (brainy-sometimes. class- question mark. efficiency-depend on my mood. sophistication-always. confidence- on certain thing. So, the accuracy 60% :) )


• for female who pick grey, they are comes across as cool and professional~


• with grey as your favourite colour, you are middle of the road type. Cool, conserved, composed and reliable. You tend to conform just to keep the peace.


• symbolized with boring, quiet or calm, neutral.

red.

• associated with 'force of will' and indicates activeness, desire, power, and sexuality.


• attention, determination, passion, strength, persistence, excitement


• those who love red live life to the fullest and are tenacious and determined in their endeavors


• one small breath can spark a flame that last forever. If red is your favourite colour, you are passionate in the extreme. You see no object in your path and will go aggressively stampede other out of the way until you reach your goal. If you meet another red lover, it's possible that the two of you may spontaneously combust! If you are not a red and find yourself pursued by one, embrace the passion or get yourself a restrainning order.

blue.

• associated with 'depth of feeling' and indicates being passive, sensitive, perceptive, calm, tender, loving and affectionate.


• loved, high regard, knowledge, authority, trust, serious, responsibility, peace, social status, caring, good health, honest, royalty, integrity, calm, happiness


• if blue is your favourite colour you like harmony, reliable, sensitive and always make an effort to think of others. You keep like to think clean and tidy and feel that stability is the most important aspect in life.


• Heaven and gentle waves are the hallmark of blue lovers. They love and can be gentle and passionate at the same time. Blue tease and tickle and then light candles and pull you down to serious business. A blue can be satisfied with one love so long as they are passionate and joyous. Blue stick with you during hard times and are there to dance when times are good.

green.

• associated with 'Elasticity of will' and indicates defensiveness, prossessiveness, persistence, assertiveness and self-confidence.


• relaxing, compassion, prosperity, growth, abundance, money, vitality, harmony and efficiency.


• those who love the colour green are oftne affectionate, loyal and frank. Green lovers are also aware of what other thinks of them and what consider their reputation very important.


• It's not a coincidence that green invoke visions of gently rolling field and fresh spring scents. The lovers of green make enduring and endearing partners who believe in love and romance. It's easy to drift into a relationship with one, you'll get everything they have to give.. just don't look at greener pastures while they are watching you.. that's one monster you never want to face.

yellow.

• Associated with 'Spontaneity' and indicates aspiration, investigation, versativity, and originality.


• "yellow is capable of charming God" --Vincent Van Gogh--


• anxiety, alert, optimistic, confident, stimulating, intelligent


• you enjoy learning and sharing your knowledge with others. Finding happiness come easy to you and others would compare you to sunshine.

orange.

• happy, courageous, succssful, enthusiasm, bold, adventuresome, friendliness, warmth, informality, welcoming.


• "orange is the happiest colour" --Frank Sinatra--

purple.

• spiritual, passionate, visionary, regal, powerful, respected, dignited, luxurious


• "i think it pisses God off of you walk by the colour purple in a field somewhere and dont notice it" --Alice Walker, The Colour Purple (Simon and Schuster 1982)


• you are artistic and unique. You have great respect for people but at times can be arrogant.
  

black.

• indicates rebellion and rejection.


• elegance, authority, dignity, sophistication, seductive, mystery


• "I have been 40 years discavering that the queen of all colours is Black" -- Pierre-Auguste Renoir--


• people who choose black as their favourite colour are often artistic and sensitive. While these people aren't introverts, they are careful with the details or their lives and do not share easily with others.

white.

• virtue, fertility, clean, status, prosperity, pure, innocent


• people who like white are often organized and logical and dont have a great deal of cluter in their lives.

here is the website to test your personality through Luscher Colour Test.

http://www.axlife.com/luscher/

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suddenly feel angry and disappointed

yea, maybe just a joke but you over the limit

yea, you are elder but what you mean of 不是很亲罢了？

although passed already but when i recall back

make me feel angry and disappointed

if i not close to 'her' why i will rush back just to attend the funeral?

if i not close to 'her' why i will cry for nothing?

if i not close to 'her' why i will call her grandma??

really sad and disappointed!!!!

how bout i say it to you:

you are not close to your daughter???

how you feel?

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只想发发牢骚

想找个人陪~

心情很低落~

昨晚睡不好

不喜欢心情低落时一个人睡

满头脑重复了那几天的画面

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是幻觉？

看着您安详的躺在那

总觉得您还在呼吸着

总觉得您像似在睡觉

还是接受不到您的离开

每次和咪回家，您都回笑着迎接我们

熟悉的声音和问候

那画面离不开我的头脑

总觉得您还在我们的身边

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现在屋子空荡荡

只希望每年的农历新年能像以往一样的热闹

没人缺席

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每当想起

泪还是不听话的滑落

我的功课上总有您的回忆

双眼红肿，

但还是得继续的加油

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you leave us unexpectedly

but still can feel you still around us

you always live in our heart

miss you

grandma

rest in peace

结束了

今年的新年是最难忘最心痛的一次

别人开心的倒数迎新年

而我却不舍的，不愿的倒数着送她走的那一刻

到家的那一刻，看到了一个笑容

是坚强，坚持的笑容

看了有点心痛

走进客厅

眼泪不停的掉落

不想接受的事实，但还是事实

3天里，体验了很多

体验了人生是多么的短暂-生老病死

但教了我

团圆

珍惜

爱

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1.1.12 早上，站在灵堂了许久

时间慢慢的流失

不舍的心情越来越重

眼泪不停的滑落

师父的一声命令

我只听见在灵堂里的人不舍的哭声

真正离别的时间到了

跟着灵车后，握着咪的手

痛哭流涕

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结束了，却看到不想看到的事

她的眼泪

让我更加心痛

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我相信我看到的蝴蝶与蚱蜢

是您们~

安心吧，一路好走

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希望每年农历新年的团圆还能继续着

这是新年的小小愿望~

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不舍的脚步，让我回到了现实

却看到朋友的安慰

真心的道谢~

没你们，对爱逃避现实的人是走不到今天的~

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加油吧，给‘她’的爱子爱女与外孙们=)

难于解释的痛
最不想的，还是发生了
哭了又哭
最不想看到的还是妈妈伤心流泪

外婆，一路走好

shopping mood on!!

today went to class at 9am end class 10am~
back to the hostel and did my 2D assignment finish it on 12pm++
received the call from ah boom and ask to go prangin mall shopping~
firstly i dont feel like want to go cause got tutorial class at 2pm..
luckily, the last tutorial class was in the last week but i skip the class because of high fever~
went to prangin mall with doodle gang and catherine..
i bought a lot of cny clothes
i bought a dress, 2 jeans, a pair of shoes and a shirt~
total spend me below than rm200 but plus eat and transport total rm220~
happy happy happy~
long time didnt shopping already~
back to klang i want to buy some singlet..my favourite :P
tmr got theatre quiz~
i didnt do revision~
haiz~hopefully can open book to do the quiz :P
feel tired after shopping~
but still have to think how to finish the product assignment and submit it on friday~
because i miss my family and bibu~
and i got another mission~
hehehehe~
i hope i can get it before i back to penang again~
i want to do something for him because he really help me alot~
i cant count and pay it back to him~
only can do some tiny surprise to him~
the surprise from doodle gang :)
hopefully he love it~

recently

recently keep busy about final projects and assignments~

too busy~

as a designer, always have to sacrifice the time to sleep and the time to eat~

that's is why i fall to sick..

fever 39 celcius, sore throat, flu, bone pain, headache, cough~every virus come to visit me>.<

luckily, my lovely classmates do care about me..

so sweet~ :P

they take good care of me, bring me to clinic, fetch me go and back to school and bring food to me~love you guys very much~

i very proud of myself..

even though sick seriously but i still can finished the assignments in a day.

mommy give me back the motivation after had a talk with her when sick~

i will fight until the end..

today visual communication have to presentation the final assignment about green coke~

i used 3 days to finished 6 designs..

1 new can for coke, t-shirt, gift away shopping and 3 posters~

i always the last one to present since primary school>.<

wait from 2pm until 6pm something~

the result of the presentation, for me is quite okay already..

although the design not perfect~

but i speak different and try to defense my design..

i never speak for myself~

today i did it~

and one of my design get praise from the lecturer~

happy~

i like to design~i like to use the software i learned this semester~

learn alot~^^

enjoy the process of design~i love design^^

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one thing is very hard for me to change is my weird personality~

i like to change~unstable emotion~

sorry to make you angry again :P

just because of a small action but very mean it :P

i will try to stand at yours side to see how you think~

learn it from philip~

i will stop to make people suffer because of me :P

wahahaha XD

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getting fat after sick~

damn, i ate alot >.<

but keep gastric

this few weeks keep suffer from gastric and cramp!!!!

walaowei!!

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lastly, im happy.

give myself a big applause :)

fighting!!!!

fight for final exam!!!

just want to pass the exam..

no demand to get a good result :P